" MOCCA "

2009-01-24T23:11:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone
My blog now change to th3gal.blogspot.com le
So link me there
Hees
No longer use tis de

2009-01-22T13:29:00.002+08:00

Today i am so suay
Laptop spoilt
Ltr going to acer to repair
=(

Huh
I seem to hab complicated feelin these days
O my
Wad happen to me?
I must get rid of tis feelin

Recently i heard tis song
Gotta Go My Own Way
Quite nice
Ppl u should go listen

I am afraid of gettin into another r.s
I dun wan to fall in love in another person
Make me firm and hard hearted
Dun let me fall in love in ppl
=D
I love myself

2009-01-12T20:54:00.002+08:00

Woohoo
Today pon school halfway to go K box
K at clementi k box again
Hees
Now clementi k box is so familiar to me
Like always see the same gal at the reception counter
Same ppl to ask for drink and ...
Hees
Did not see the one i dislike today
Hees
Although is onli me, jeanice and kaydence
But i hab tons of fun
Blink blink =)
O ya
One thing we forgt
We forgt to tak photos xia
O man
Haas
Next time more ppl to go yea
Hope every one in our clinque will go
Like elaine,edith, geraldine and ...

Woohoo
But now throat not feelin tat well o
Think i shout too much rather than sing too much le
Haas
Lalala
Actualli wanna go back again after sch de
But dun wan ba
Like siao like dat
Lol
Hees
Shall go in my upcoming holiday
I shall work harder and earn more
And enjoy more

Now i am craving for gucci wallet =(
Dunno when i will manage to get the money
And i wan dye hair
Cut hair
Trim my eyebrows
Facial
and and and ...

Okay na
Tired le
Hees
Byebye

2009-01-10T12:24:00.002+08:00

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2009-01-09T12:53:00.002+08:00

New things learned ~
Was having stomach ache from ytd midnight till now
Is so pain
I nv been so pain b4
Pain till i feel so hopeless
And wanna to cry

Realli hope there is someone by my side
Now i realise
Everything onli can depends on yrself
When u r veri ill
Even yr friends are there
They might not care abt u
Ppl care abt themselves more den ppl
Is realli hard to find a true friend who will sacrife for u
Cos in their mind
They feel they are more important den u
Those who are truely care
Are parents and relatives

Tis is the thing i realise
True friend tat realli care is hard to find
Everything depends on yrself
No one can help u
Onli u yrself
Hais
I realli hope the suffer will end soon
When i am in pain
The person i think of
Is the one who are important to me
And they are my mother, cousin and him
I cannot contact him anymore
Cos now i am nobody to him
So contact him will aso make him think i am crazy ba
Maybe he will think tat
I am aso not doctor
Tell me for wad ne

I truely pray tat i will be alright for UT later on
And i realise who are true to me

2008-12-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

Is been long since i last posted
Shall wish everybody a merry christmas 1st yea

Hmmm...
Yea..
After me and him break off
Mani ppl asked me how am i le
Sometimes i realli dunno hw to reply
All i can said is tat i am feelin better le
But still unable to forget him
The raining days still there

And beneath my heart
I noe it is hard
It is hard to find someone to replace him
To replace all the sweet memories
My heart told me too
It dun wan anyone to replace it
Even i am reluctant
Life still move on
I cannot ensure he will be the one i love forever
But one thing i can confirm is that
I will nv forget abt him
I really hope there is a day
When i tell ppl abt my past r.s
I can smile and share wit them
Witout having any pain in my heart

I dunno wad am i to him now
All i wish now
Is he being happy and safe
I dun care hw much he hurt me
Though i realli hate wad he did
And the hurt he bring
But is all the past
Just hope he can get a gd gf
And takcare of him
And stop doing things tat will hurt himself and his family
Maybe he will think those things he did now
Is meaningful and so on
Den i will respect and support him
Is his decision
I won care wad he wan to do now
As long as he feel it is worth it
And he is happy
Tat will do
Cos i noe no matter hw ppl asked him not to do wad he wan
He won listen one
Cos i am tis kind of person too
One day he den will realise wad he did is worth it or not

Anyway he is a grown up le
He will noe wad is right for him
May god bless u yea =D

Life to me now is more freedom
Less stressful
Though sometimes i does hope there is onli one guy in my life
And not a complicated lifestyle
But rite now
I noe the importance of friendship
And also realise who are the true friends i hab
=D

Thanks everyone for showin me care and concern
I can tell u all
I am alright now
And i am back to tat shirley
No more weeping de shirley
I will be strong
And gaining back my confidence
And not being the weakling
Crying for a guy
And i will be happier
Moving on wit my life
Continuing wit my story

I won regret being wit him
But appreciate more
Cos i realli experience more
=D

2008-12-03T13:48:00.002+08:00

Friends?
Is realli hard to find someone who realli understand u well
Sometimes when u need them
They are not by yr side
And when you told them yr feelin
They said they dunno hw to help u
And even say u back

If one realli can control wad she doin nw
U think she will go do things dat is not applicable
Won't rite?
Is she ownself cannot control den will do it
Different people has different prespective
Wad u think is rite might be wad others think is rite
Like for me
I think those gals are keep on add guys on friendster de
Are flirt
But to them
They might feel is normal
So we cannot based on ourselves and judge others
Cos is unfair to them
Who are true friends ne?
I bet those who will sit down quietly besides u
Supporting yr decision
And won't find u a trouble
Is considered a very gd friend
Even though my beloved cousin
Won't gif me much advice and console
But she is the one who will let me feel her care and concern
A true feelin she gif me
Not those hack care feelin
Dat tell me she dunno hw to help me
I must help myself or wad de
She show me her sincerity
I swear i am such a fortunate gal to hab her as my cousin
Realli hope we can be 2gether always
I can't imagine a day witout her
And i won't want a day witout her
Now
I noe she is feelin very sad
Which hurts me too
I keep blaming
Keep blaming i am such a useless cousin
Who cannot stop her tears
I dunno hw to help her overcome
All i can do is try to make her happy ba
I won't stop her from crying
Cos i noe keepin to herself will be worse
I wan her to cry all her sorrow out
And forget her sadness
And not hide inside her heart

I realli hope god can gif her the best
She is such a great gal
And she never do bad things
She always there to help ppl
She dun deserve to get any hurts
While i deserve it more den her
So dun let her suffer

Hais
Now i also understand wad is her feelin when i am down
I am so sry for giving her so much hurts
But i am shy to say out all to her
Cos we hardly say tis kind of things
But one thing i wan to say is tat
I am truly sry for making u cry on yr bday
I am the worst cousin i bet
I hope time can pass faster
And let yr pain slowly fade away
Let be back to our happy us
Go swimmin, singin and shoppin 2gether
And i will be there for u to overcome yr sadness
So dun be afraid to ask me out
Or gif me troubles
Cos u r never a trouble to me
Is a fortunate to me
And i realli dun mind to be yr listenin ear
Unless u mind me to be one
=)
Cheers
Love u always

And i hab some other gd friends too =)
And wonderful classmates
Love u all too =)
May our friendship last till the end

2008-12-02T19:00:00.002+08:00

Humph
Recieve some complaints for not updatin
O yea
I shall post wad i hab been doin ba
Last thurs i was workin till 3am man
Fri mornin rush to sch for the competition thingy
Den after tat go k box
Sat and sun was workin at IT show
Sad dat my beloved cousin not wit me
But i can understand =)
Was eatin alone on the 1st day =(
But is okay
Alson was carin enough
Let me eat inside the storeroom
And also take gd care of me =)
Never scold me when my sales is not gd
Still say not bad le
But in fact is veri bad
So dun wanna let him down
Chiong for my 2nd day
And sales was not bad =)
Finally nv throw my face as a old bie
Hees
Get to know quite a number of new friends yea =)
They added me on msn =)
All of them are friendly
But i keep kanna bullied
Especially ppl tell me tat if yr hands is bigger den yr face
Mean next time u will be rich
And i gt smash on my face
So i try tat in sch to cheat my friends too
But disappointin
Onli tat kuku bird get cheated by me =(
Rest all noe le
Not fun de
I shall move on and cheat more ppl
Hees
Enough of all bully
LOL
I shall now transform into a devil and bully u all back
LOL

Hees
Today in sch was sufferin
Suddenly not feelin well
Reach home tell my parents
They like kenna worried of me
And daddy bought ice cream for me
Hees
My favourite colourful icecream lei
Woohoo
Now type msg quite bad o
Ytd secretly help my mum do the donut boxes till quite late den slp o
Cos see my mum hands pain pain
Help her better o
She lo
Go act pro
Dunno why go find troubles
Find this kind of pass time
100 boxes earn $1.50
Is like hell na
Even daddy also say not worth it
Haas
I am sure my mum won't do it for long
Confirm a while more
Dun wan do le
Haas
When back home le
My mum told me
Lucky i help her do as afternoon the supplier gt come
Den shun bian gif her
Haas

THe end

WHEN IS THE RAIN GOING TO STOP
NO MATTER WHERE IS IT
IS JUST WON'T STOP
BE BUS BE TRAIN
LET IT STOP
AND HAB THE SUN OUT

2008-11-18T08:31:00.002+08:00

She is suffering inside
Struggling in her heart
Perhaps she is used to the life wit him
Is harder than b4
With different goals, different outcome
B4, she noe he will be out
Back to her
But now
Her goals is to forget him
And he will nv back to her
No matter hw long she wait

2008-11-16T13:58:00.002+08:00

Sry
2day ppl mention abt him again
And i failed
I cried again
Hais ~
Pls dun mention abt him again ba
I dun wan to remember any of my pasts
Take it i am avoiding reality or wad
I just dun wan mention of him again
Thanks

2008-11-11T13:21:00.002+08:00

Please ppl !!
Dun let me think of him again
Dun mention him again
I dun wan to think of him again le
I dun wan to make a big fool of myself
I dun wan my story of life become like dat
I wan a change
I wan to be happier
I deserve to be happier
Crying for almost 1 yr le
Let me out
Dun trapped me inside
Give back my happiness
Is dun worth it le
If he love me
He won treat me tis way le
Dun be such a fool
Keep thinking wad will he need
And wad help he wan
He wan to hurt himself
Let him be
Concern for wad
He also nv concern of u
Y u so shameless?
Is this u?
Thought u quite arrogant and love yr face de
Y u become like tat?
So low down ne
When can u stop making the ppl around u to worry
When can u back to yr ownself
PLS dun be such a bitch
Such a slut
Keep holding on to him for wad
HE DUN LOVE U ANYMORE
Wake up

I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate everything

2008-11-11T13:13:00.002+08:00

The same thing happen all over again
Ytd was drunk
Drink half bottle of the pure alcohol witout adding any mixture
After drinking it
I loss of vision
Wad i see is totally blur
And lie on the floor
And vomit here and there

In the morning
I realise i did lots of things regretted
Y am i irritating?
Y am i so fan?
Y is he so heartless and cruel to me?
I feel tat i going mad le
Hais
Morning realised my knee got some bruises
And some blue black
Think is cos i drunk le
Keep falling on the floor
My whole jacket become dirty too

I make a big fool of myself
Which makes me find it to turn back
Sorry
The person i wanna apologise to is my cousin
I made her cried on her bday
Hw bad am i?
I am such a bitch
How can did tat?
Living in tis world is like a trouble to others
Keep giving ppl troubles
And keep making fool of myself

Y?
Faster get out of here can?
Hai

2008-11-10T12:26:00.002+08:00

Heihei
I realise the ppl coming to read my blog getting more le ar
Heihei
Dun think i dunno who u r ar
Haiyo
Dun view my blog secretly lei
View le must tag ma =D

Hees
Ppl who concern of me
Dun worry abt me yea
I am fine
And was realli grateful for all yr concern
I LOVE
MY DARLING
MY COUSIN
MY GIRLFRIEND
NEO SHI QI (confirm gt read my blog de)
ROSEBEL
EDDY
TOH YONG WEI
WANG ZHI
FISH
RYAN
EDITH
JEANICE
KAYDENCE
GERALDINE
TAN SI YING
LIM LIN JA
TAN PEI CHING
TRICIA KER YU WEI
CHONG KAILING
XUAN MIN
RACHAEL
AND
....

Haas
Tired of naming out the names
Lol
Pai seh ar
Lol
Ppl who gt view my blog
Must come visit my pushcart next week ar =D
We wan to be a successful businesswomen
Lol

Oooo
Ytd a bad thing happen which realli freak me out
I now understand how worried ppl can be when hearing yr loved one might leave u
Dun say loved ones, friends too
I am so worried
I dun wan lose a friend just in a day time
If i lose him as my friend
I confirm sad de
Cos seriously speaking
I treat him not good as a friend
Yet he nv treat me not good as a friend
Even though sometimes he dun talk nice nice to me
Always suan me de
But when come to i need concern
He will be there

I remember tat time
When he is sad too
Gt the same problem as me
And i am crying non stop
He took cab to find me
But not more than 1 hr
He took cab back le
Is like so waste his money
And plus he is sad too
Yet he still need to concern ppl
To us(SQ team)
I believe everyone treasure him
Even though alson and clarence dunno him tat long
Yet concern of him
Still wanna tak initative to go find him
And to us
We noe he is one of us
Witout him
Everyone will be sad too de
He is always there concern everyone of us
But for me
I feel tat when he is sad
I nv did much to help him
Nv gif him much of my concern too
Feel tat i am quite a failure as a friend
Seeing him suffer yet i cannot stop him
I bet SQ will be equally disappointed too
When seeing him torturing himself de
Ppl
Let work in a team and stay united to help our dear friend carry on wit his life ba
Help him go through tis period ba
I am realli glad i noe such a grp of gd friends in SQ team
Although some ppl there hor
Like fake fake de
Did things aso cos of someone
And nv appreciate the friendship
Like i got come and dun come aso no diff
But is okay na
I still treat u as my friend na
Lol
And all the best for u ar =D

Weee...
Let enjoy our life to the fullest =D
I love u all
Muacks
LOL

2008-11-09T11:50:00.002+08:00

I make a wrong move again
I should not call him
Should keep it inside my heart

My heart dropped out when hearing the news
Saying he hug wit other gals
I realli cannot believe it is truth
Keep thinking he is doing that purposely
But the problem is tat me and him already solved le
Y he wanna do it purposely?
And cannot be tat person lying to me ba
Hai

He shown me attitude again
Bring 2 gals wit him too
Hais
Dun wanna mention wad happen ba
I will nv wan to patch wit him in this life again
I dun even hab the thought of wanna patch
But y let me noe tis truth
I dun wan to noe the truth
I wan a peace break
Now i noe
U r lying to me
Saying u dun love her
Hais
Forget it le na
We already break le
Wad for i care so much
Keep crying and wanna vomit again
And when i crying, he shouted at me
Hais
Maybe aso gd ba
He wit tat gal
Den he will change back to the goods
And won't did things to hurt himself ba

After tat
Sticks again
And drench in the rain
All wetted
Is raining cats and dogs
I am thinking i am all wetted
Wad u doin now ne?
Isit hugging the gal to slp?
Telling her dun be scare of the thunder?
Lol
Silly me,rite?
Making myself suffer
Yet maybe he is enjoying
Worth it ma?
Forget it le na

Reach home at 6 tis morning
Haven slp yet
Still haven go to my dumb dumb land
Thought ytd will be a happy day for me
Finally able to go out wit cousin
And i dun always cry le
But again tis incident happen
God
Pls be fair to me
Tell Me
Am i so bad hearted
Or did lots of wrong things in life
Den i deserve tis stage?
Or u just wanna make me strong?
Prepare me for the future?
God
Pls tell me wad should i do?
U r one of them i trust most too

I hate him ~

2008-11-07T12:26:00.003+08:00

Now is the start of something new
=D
I will live the best out of it de
Wit so much ppl de support and encouragement
I won let u all down
Especially my sisters and cousin
Of cos not to neglect my friends
Which is
SQ gang =D
My Girlfriend
Ryan(dun say i nv mention u)
My kors
My family
My classmates
My workmates
And more =D
Love u all lots lots

Thanks u all for being there to listen to my wailing
And now i am feeling better le
Cos i noe well me and him is impossible
Perhaps i can think in a gd way
Is a chance to get out of my trap
And get my happiness
I dun wanna be a pigeon mentioned
Trapped in the cage
North,south,east, west
Also cannot get out
Now i am free =D

Was pretty sad when u treat me not the same
But is okay na
I still gt all my dearest friends wit me
And i am not the worst case yet
Still gt eddy tis guy
Hais ~
Dunno hw to make him stay tall again
WORRIED !!!
Hope all my friends will nv leave me
I hate seeing ppl leaving me
Especially leaving in tis world
And i won get to see him or her again
So hope Eddy's health can take it
And dun cos of a rs
Wasted a life
Since the other party dun appreciate wad we did
Den let dun waste time le ba

All i can said is we tried le
We does get hurts too
Though we dun mind getting more hurts
But they mind
We also cannot force them to dun mind too ar
We only can blame ourselves for loving them too deep
But not blaming them for not loving us that deep
Maybe i am the lucky one
Cos tis round i am not the one saying break
Or else i dun dare to face the person i break wit
Seeing him so sad must be miserable too
So let all be friends ba

Witout Bf
Is nth to me =)
Only friend matters

2008-11-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

Everything ended
Met him out 2day
Wanna to noe the true ans
We ended

And i won contact him anymore le
I gave up
Gave up on any hopes left within my heart
Throughly NUMBED
We hugged and he gif me a last kiss in my forehead
Will remember it de
After he left
I cried loudly
Dun wanna let him noe hw bitterly i cried
And i vomited too

Health is failing tis period
Not i wanna be optimistic
Is realli failing
I keep having gastric pain everyday
And everytime i cried too aggressively
I vomited
Hais
Dunno when can my health last

I am sry my friends, my loved ones
For giving u all a hard time tis period
Believe me
I will be strong and go through tis de
I will prove to u all
I have grown up le
Thanks lin jia and Siying
They are the ones who keep supporting me
Holdin on to me
If not cos of my friends
I think i might collapse

Sisters
U all are my love
Love u always
I promise my love for u all will nv end
Cos we won't be like rs
Break le jiu no more le
We will hab everlasting sisterhood de =)
Tat my wish for my 16th bday =0
Opps
I accidently say tat
But seriously
U all mean a lot to me too =)

And sry for neglecting u
When i gt bf
I promise i will change de
See and accept my changes,okay?
LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS

Shirley is going to be strong =)
No longer a baby
Since her papa dun wan her le

2008-11-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

Love life start to blossom
Nowaday ppl toldin me he love me
Or ppl tak number from me
And
Luck start to change for the better
But heart is still aching everyday
A hole in my heart
No matter hw much guys like me
It does not touches me
Cos i am too deep into love wit him
Hais
I am feeling so so miserable
All my head is him him him

Everyday keep bugging and begging for kor to let me use com
All to see whether he online or not
Hais
And keep askin ppl to takcarrie of him
I am so worried he is suffering
Or do something to hurt himself
But i am there to hurt myself
Hais
Keep havin gastric constantly
But i hack care le
Die jiu die ba
I not scare anymore
Pain jiu pain lo
The more the better ba

And nowdays i keep on listening to songs
Even bathing
Aso listen to songs
When i hear songs which reminds us again
I cried again
2day spend a lot
Wanna change myself for tis new life
Wanna change a phone too
Cos tis phone remind of our memories
And i dun bear to del our msg and photos too
So i wanna get a phone
Hais

2008-11-02T10:44:00.002+08:00

Fuck
Early in the morning
Quarrel wit my mum
Nag nag nag
I am so fucking stressed out in life
Can't u just gif me a break
Dun stress me up already
If not cos of my parents and family
I won be tryin my best to strong
I can be just selfish
Wan end my life jiu end
Hais
I noe i can't blame her
Cos she noe nth abt wad i feeling now
Even the pain i hab everyday
I cried everyday
Wad i did
She aso dunno
Hais
I aso cannot let her noe
i dun wanna add on my miserable to her
Hai

Fuck life
I need more sticks
8 sticks no enough
Gif me more

2008-11-02T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hw long can i last?
How long can i wake up?
Hais~
Doing something to stop myself from thinkin of him
NUTs
I am goin nuts?
Hais

2008-11-01T11:34:00.002+08:00

Wake up in the morning
Heartache to realise it is another day witout him
Though now i finally can get to slp le
But heart won be heal
I can swear tat
I
Lee Mei Ling Shirley
Will nv forget
Chia Tian Shun
No matter hw many steads i hab next time
There will be a space for him in my heart
He will hab permanent place in my heart
He is the only one i love the most right now
Is realli hard to find someone to replace him..
Hais~
But dunno wad am i to him ne?
Other gals can replace me?
He is my most precious

My friend wrote in his nick
Saying the one u love most is usually the one who hurts u most
I think is true ba
Last time i dun realli get much hurt
Onli till him
Maybe not me and him wanna hurt each other
Think is cos we tai zai yi each other le
So tak each other words very seriously
Boiboi
I really love u !
Hais

2008-10-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

A sian day again
Goin to work
Met a wierd customer
When i am servin another customer

me and his conversation is like dat
Him - how much is tat FBK parfum?
Me - $126
Him - i tried tat b4, how abt the big one?
Me - $126 too, the small bottle is $126, cos is a gel form
And he tried.
Him - Wad is yr name?
Me - shirley
Him - nice to meet u(wanna shake hands wit me as a courtesy)
So i shake hands wit him
And he hold my hands and said nice nails
....
And he left
So i carry on serve the woman beside her
The woman asked me
Tat red color bottle(the one tat guy tried) is for guys ar
i said nope is for lady
Den she asked den y tat guy tried
Den i laugh and said dunno
BUT IS FOR LADY
haas
We both laughed
...
A while ltr
He came back again
Him : Tat one is the new fragrance(kenzo jungle, gal most aweful smell)
Me : Nope, u wanna try, try on paper
Him : try on body ba, cos will gif diff smell
Me : Okay, cos i scare too strong for u so asked u to try on paper
Him : yea, is quite strong
Me : haas
Him : u wear heels ar?
me : a bit
Him : when is yr next off day?
Me : i dun hab off days, keep workin and schoolin(lying)
Him : can gif me yr number?
Me : NO (heart:feel like sayin i hab bf le, but Opps, we break le)

Hais
He make me recall we break le
Last time when gt guys ask number from me
I told them cannot, i gt bf le
But now i can only stop after sayin NO

2008-10-30T09:12:00.000+08:00

I hate guys ~
Especially u

2008-10-29T01:09:00.002+08:00

I am awakened
I finally can del our photos and wad i put on friendster le
I able to let go of him now
I realli will let go of him
We r impossible
Wad he did
Made me hate him
A going one yr the relationship
Even though cannot be couple
But u ruin it
Till we could not even be friends
I will prove to u
No more u in my life
I can live happier
If tat wad u wan
U should happier wit my current decision

I am back to my old self
So wad the big deal of having tis relationship?
Dun hab him
I will die meh?
Witout him
There no one gifin me sadness again
I will live better
=)
Thanks god
I noe wad u mean le
I will do wad u say

2008-10-28T08:53:00.002+08:00

Morning le
I still haven slp yet
Keep thinking and cannot fall asleep
Today the third day i nv slp le
Super duper tired
But just cannot fall asleep
Eyes still as swollen as ytd
I wondering am i a fool
Keep crying
And keep on sad and sad
Somemore msg him even though he like so cold to me
Super hurt
Gal ~
Pls forget him
Let him go ba
Wad for hold on to tis relationship when he dun feel like turning back le?
Even he said break due to angerness
Aso mean break le
U aso dunno whether he mean or not
Scarly he already start to forget abt u
And already decided there is no turning back
And u keep waiting aso no use le
Forget him day by day ba

Maybe wait till he cool down
U jiu can hold on le
Won feel like turning back le
Since already so long witout him?
Hais
Confused
Should i move on?
Forget him?

2008-10-28T04:13:00.002+08:00

Everything ended le =(
Tears keep rolling down witout fail
Perhaps tis is our last time break le
I will work hard to forget him de
After crying for hours
Till my eyes are swollen

Wanna forget him not cos i dun love him anymore
But is wanna him to hab happiness
Cos i love him
So i gonna let him go
Perhaps he will happier
Love someone, u dun need to hab him by yr side
U wish he is happy too
I truely hope tat he will stay happy
And safe
If i noe he is not well after breaking
I will be sadder ba

We are indeed very funny
Both of us love each other
Yet we love and do things tat hurts each others
Hais ~
Maybe we 2 dunno hw to think
Wad to say?
Maybe if we hab fate
We will be 2gether again

I rushed home to use computer
When my bro is slping
I beg him to let me use his com
Keep on begging him
He like veri pissed off wit me till like wanna beat me
But i noe he bear wit it
And went to slp in the living room
Sry kor
Family is still the best
I went to see his profile
And found tat he start writing comment to gal le
Which he won do tat when we r couple
Happy to see him nv del our date and the poem
But sad when see him writing tat he sad cos tat gal nv rite comment for him
Maybe he will do the same thing as zhiyi?
Find a sub of me?
But i trust he won
Cos i gt ask him b4
And he said he won do tat to me
Anyway
I just wanna wish him all the best
And hope he will be more xin fu
While me
I will try to forget him
Let go of him ~
I noe he is hurt too
But to end tis relationship
I noe he aso wish the best for me
Though he sound veri cruel when we break
But i noe he dun mean it
He just wan to let me go
Perhaps he noe i am suffering and wanna me to go ba

All the best to u, my boi
I will nv forget u
And all the things u did for me
The necklace, i will be keep wearing
One more time
I wanna say i love u to u
I realli love u deeply
Perhaps few months ltr i can let go of u
Or maybe it take years or a lifespan
Who noe?
Let time prove our love ba
I will keep everything u gif and treasure them
Hope u found the heart in the box of sweets
And hope tat heart will heal yr sadness
I am sry for hurting u

I dunno wad my life will be witout him
Maybe keep drinking, smoking or clubbing?
Who noe?
Read my update to see my new life ba

Pigeon trapped, north, south,east,west, cannot go through

2008-10-26T23:35:00.010+08:00

Our memories

Will it become our past?

The lake we go

I still remember

U bought my favourite banana cake and wa zai milk for me

And i drink down there

I used to tell u tis place

Is where i go

Whenever i am sad

Tis is the place of my sadness

Is also the place when u break for tat few days

And i cried non stop there

And smoke there

This is the pic i take when i 1st go yr hse downstairs

I still remember hw we communicate

Me and my cousin was on the lorry

And u at yr hse

Shouting up and u shouting down

U was quiet while i am noisy

Cos u afraid of disturbing others

But i dunno

Still continue shouting

This is the time we act emo

U pei me tak photo 2gether

I remember u come fetch me from my hse to yr hse

It is my 1st time wearing tis yellow dress

Which is u acc me go buy de

U said i look nice on it

Somemore when u noe i am alone at yr room

U come and acc me

Rather than acc yr friends

Tis is the time we r busy creating

I LOVE U

Will there be a day when we stop saying I love u anymore?

Or perhaps is there any day we stop loving each others?

Tis is the time we acting act 2gether

We just simply love acting cute to each others

U noe i dun behave like dat in other guys?

When our guys are around

I am some sort of attitude gal out there

I just wanna do things differently to u

Cos u r my one and only bf

I wanna treat u special

Tis is the time

When i told u

Let make funny faces 2gether

See who is the most uglier?

Tis is the time we act normal

I just love taking photos wit u

I wanna buy a camera

Cos i wanna tak more and more pictures wit u

I wan to tak down every happy moments of us being 2gether

I just enjoy taking pic wit u

Tis is the time
The day 080808
I recieve my 1st flower
And aso the fixed date we said long ago
080808 will be the start of us
U told me b4 u go in
U will come out and be my gd boi
And after yr tagging
U goin to repay me
Send me home everyday
And out promises
Going mid night cycle
U still remember u nearly won be 2gether
Cos there is a time
We suddenly nv msg each other
Till the misunderstanding is clear
And the time i rush down from my work
To jacky hse to find u
I cried at my workplace
My 1st time crying in front of others
Somemore the one i cried for
Is not someone i noe veri long
Is just months
U r the one who acc through the sadness
Stop my tears from falling
And send me gd nite msg everyday
Be my fake bf
And promise to make me happy every single day
U always listen to wad i say
And yr mum noe
Ya onli listen to me
I still remember when i cook at yr hse
And elaine not cooking
U stand by me
Said elaine nv cook

Tis is the time
When yr nottiness act out
Paste tis tatoo on yr bro's leg when he is slping
I laugh until cannot tahan
I aso paste tatoo on u and u keep rubbing off
U aso paste on me back

Tis is the time
When i took tis pic at causeway point
Cos i am thinking of u
When i saw tis piggy
I think of u
Think of ya keep sayin i pig
And i aso keep saying u r pig
Cos u like to slp
Slp so much
Till scare me
Scare wad happen to u
Cos my grandma is cos of slp den die de
I dun wan u to leave me

Tis is the time
When me and my cousin went IMM
And while shopping
I thinking of u again
So intend to buy u tis panda
To acc u when u r bathing
But in the end
Tis little panda
Got extension on his hands and ears
So poor thing
And u used one time and stop using

Tis is the time
U buy tis box of chocolates for me
I remember tat time i am sick
So u ask me dun greedy
Go eat tat chocolates
Den i tell u
I den not greedy
I realli keep it for months
Nv even touch it
And display on my shelf
Onli till ya go in
And i open and eat
While thinking of u
I realise the chocolates realli keep too long le

Tis is the time
When we quarrel again
U r running around finding me
I remember u run around to find me
And said if cannot find me
Den u r not going back home
And i used eyeliner to write words on the seat
U aso took tis photo
I will nv forget hw hard u try to find me
I am realli touched

Tis is the time
When u took tis
Coming to CP to find me
Wanna pass it to me
But sadly u cannot come in
And i keep asking u
Wad u buy for me?
U said dun wan tell me
In de end u told me
And aso said u shall eat it yrself
And i forbid u
Saying is u buy for me de lei
So i dun care
I must eat it de
So i went yr hse to eat

Tis is the time

U buy chocolate for me

When u r working

Though the chocolate is melt

And it is a dark chocolate

But it still taste so sweet

The best chocolate i ate b4

Tis is the time

I buy tis cake

Represent us

Eat it part by part

Eat their eyes den the body

U aso gif me one of the eye

Tis is the time

When my nottiness appear

Put yr bro's bear high up the curtain

Tis is the time

Aso the 1st time

I recieve a valentine bday

And u told me

I gif u a small doggy

Now u returning me tis big doggy

Asking me to tak care of it

Sometimes i still talk to tis dog while on the phone wit u

And make u jealous i treat tis doggy better den u

And u act cute to me

Said i muack doggy

Nv muack u

And u sad sad

Tis is the time

When i am angry wit u

And u come find me

I asked u

If u dun wan me to angry

Den let me do wad i wan?

Can?

And u realli agree

So tis is the time

When u agree

And i start putting on make up on yr face

And tie yr hair

And aso put belt on yr waist

U still remember i always ask u to do something when u make me unhappy

Ask u to mak the sha jiao sound?

Which u keep on dun wan do de

And aso follow me saying the la bi xiao xin said de things

Tis is the time

When yr friends was playing arcade

Den me and u hide inside the neoprint there

And i start taking photos

Do u still remember we play the gun game 2gether?

The gun game aso show how much mo qi we gt

Today when i am eating mac

I thought of u

U r the one who noe which kind of french fries i prefer

And u went smashing the fries for me

I aso remember the time when we r eating dinner 2gether

U smash tat green bean which i said is cute

Making me sad sad

Wanna cry de

And i smash yrs back

And u smash mine again

Till i cannot tahan

And complain to yr mama

And u start saying i am a complaint queen

Yea

I dun deny we realli hab so much sweet memories b4

And i do realli everything u did for me

Only i nv mention it

When i am angry

I said till ya treat me very bad

But is just my anger words

I will nv forget hw gd u treat me

U really treat me very nice

I noe when u treat me not gd

Is cos u r on anger

Not u wan de

I understand all these

U noe i aso scared tat after u take off yr tagging

U will go clubbing wit yr friends

And no time for me le

U still remember i told ya b4?

When i suddenly missing from yr life

Hw u gonna find me?

U still remember hw i cried when u goin in

I nv cried like dat b4

But cos of u

I cried like dat 2 times

One is u goin in

And another time is when we break

I cried like dat in the toilet

Using music to cover my CRY

I noe maybe 2 u now

Cry is just normal

Cos u already see i cry so much times b4 le

Do u believe u r the 1st one who see me cry so much b4

U noe i nv cry in front of ppl

And hw seldom i cried

And do u noe i am so attitude

Till i dun say sry to ppl de

My close friends will noe tat de

U won noe hw attitude i am

Cos from the starting

I appear as another person to u

Which i dunno wad i will react like dat

Cannot treat u the way i treat others

Do u noe i am so into tis relationship?

Till i feel i am stuck here

Thus cos of tis relationship i realli cry a lot

But yet i cannot gif up

Cos i am stuck

Stuck cos of loving u

And cannot be hard hearted to u

Everytime when i am angry

U said sry or talk to me

I am okay le

But u noe if i angry to others

I mean wad i said

No friend mean no friend

Hais

Perhaps all these memories r goin to be past

Maybe we just ended tis way

No one saying break

But already on the breaking path

Sometimes i tell my friends abt us

Wad we quarrel abt?

And wad we do 2gether

They said we veri cute

I am thinking wha

We quarrel aso one form of cute way?

Takcarrie my ...

2008-10-25T22:58:00.003+08:00

What love is all abt?

Someone told me

Love is when yr happiness x2, sadness lessen x2

Is my love life realli like dat?

Haiz

2008-10-25T22:33:00.002+08:00

What is Love all abt?
All abt sadness?
Why others de relationship seems to be smooth?
While mine?
Is it cos we dun suit each other?
I read a magazine
It said when a couple quarrel
It dun mean the couple dun suit each other
But it is the time when the couple noe each other well
And also a chance to noe what each other is thinking abt

What is the right thing?
Can anybody tell me?
Somehw now i feel dat i cannot afford goin on a long relationship
Cos i am too emotional
Noe someone longer and longer
Being 2gether longer and longer
I dun bear to let it go
Hais ~
But wad is the point of finding someone u love
And just go for few months of relationship jiu break
I am feeling kinda low now
2day is my off day
One full day free
Dun need to work
But i wasted my off day
From i wake up waited for him to off work
Finally 4.30, he off work
I am so duper happy
Quickly jump out of my bed
And went to bath
Wanna make myself smell nice nice
Everything go on smoothly
Till he said the pic me and my friend took de is not nice
And the pic i took, nice de
Is cos of the photo effects
Wha...
A joke?
I dun find it a joke
But rather a insulting
U said it is just a small issue, a bit of thing
Why should i angry abt?
Yeayea
Perhaps i am too petty
But tis is the way i am
I am super duper senstive of my looks and weight
I mind hw ppl judge on me
ANd i hate negative comments and remarks
I wan everything of me to be good

And when u said wrong thing
Which make me upset
U dun even bother to apologise to me
Or tell me u r just joking
Or cheer me up
And u just left me in your parent room
When i come out
I saw u playing computer
And u saw me come out
U shut the door in front of me
WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT?
And next we quarrel using msg
And i said i wanna go home
Ask u to open the door
And u just open the door
And walk back the room
And scam the door
Is just like u r chasing me out of the hse

Hey
I am not someone who can tolerate everything u hab done to me
I have my limits too
I hab my dignity too
U did tat to me
In front of your family and friends
SO nice of u,rite?
Maybe u can said if love someone
U won care abt face or dignity all tat
But somehw is just a insult to me
A big big insult
Tell u
I dun owe u any things man
U hab no rights treating me like dat
Everytime when i angry
U said sry or talk to me 1st
I just forgif u le
I just taking things too easy
And heart too soft
So u r stepping over my head
Maybe wad i said is wrong
U r the one who r always right
U r the victim
Of cos
Everyone wanna speak good of themselves

All i can say is tat
2Day is such a disappointment
I am wondering
Wad all these abt?
Do i worth all these?
Y am i just stuck here?
Is he the right one for me?
What love is all abt?
Do love still exist btw us?
Hais
FUCK LIFE LA

2008-10-23T08:48:00.002+08:00

Actually 2day dun wanna come sch
Due to ytd drink cough syrup
Den when wake up
My head dizzy dizzy
Feeling sleepy ~

But still drag myself to sch
As there is UT 2day
If dun go sch 2day
Will be wasted
As i still need to go sch
Feel i am such a gd gal
Is like 1 week 1 day already
Witout any ponning =0
Keep it up yea =)
Wanna avoid myself from ponning sch
Hees
Yeayea !!!
Next month i onli work few days nia
Specially requested
So i will be more free
More off days
And more time to rest
As well as more time to go shopping =o
Hees
So peeps
Ask me out next month yea =)
So my off days won't be wasted
Hees

O ya
I wanna save money
Realli must make it yea
No spending more than 100$ per week
Hees
=)

I am feeling tired le
All the best to those who are having UT 2day
INCLUDING me =)
HooHoo
I wanna eat cai fan 2day =o

Th3GaL
dun judge me ~

2008-10-20T15:12:00.006+08:00

My Boi =)

I love tis photo a lot =)

Do we look alike? L0L

Tired of my wordy blog
Here Few pictures to wake u all up
Hees
Lesson too bo liao le
Dun wanna listen
Shall spend my time edit and blog pic instead
Dun wanna waste my time on the faci
Argh !!!

2008-10-20T14:31:00.002+08:00

A sucking day i got
Hai ~
Dun wanna mention wad has happened
All i could say is tat
Yes, maybe to u all is fun and dun mean it
But every fun and laughter from u
Is HURT ~
There is a limitation to everything
I hope i can put everything to a stop
I hab enough of it
All of yr laughters dismotivate my ongoing improvements
Other i am still fine
But for u
Pls has a limit yea

I am born the way i am
And being like tis is not i wan too
Hais ~
Shirley
Hold on to it
Dun let anything from makin u not confident
Belief in yrself
And strive for wad u wan
Self esteem, confidence, patient yea

Ltr goin to work le
Sian ~
Nth to do
I hate 2day lesson yea
Hate 2day FACI
I wanna pon, wanna pon

Who wan any inperfection in themselves?

2008-10-17T09:50:00.002+08:00

Hais ~
Another sad day for me
I hope i can strive
Strive not to let my classmates noe i am feelin sad now
Avoid thinkin wad has happened

When can i be a sunflower ne?
Noe is kenna funny to link myself to the sunflower
Hais
We quarrel ytd
Quite a serious one
All cos of "TRUST" tis word
I am sry tat i could not trust ya as in the past
I wan to trust ya too de
But ya the 2nd guy who lie to me le
My ex lie to me
And it cause a great impact to me
Which i told myself
Stop gettin into relationship to prevent i trust the wrong one again
And get hurt
So tat y i reject u in the past
But accept ya
Cos i feel tat ya r worth me takin another risk to check it up
But nv expect
My total trust on u can become now of half trust
And is hard for me to gain back the trust i hab in u
Even though i can
But do u noe
There is still lots of scars inside my heart
Which is hard to heal?
The hurt ya bring, is a lifetime
Is not i wan to forget
It can be forgotten
I wan to forget too
And restart over again
And do u noe the fear i am in?
Actualli all along i am in fear
Veri veri de scared
Scared i will be like Candy
And ya will be like Zhiyi like dat treat me
Cos u 2 are too alike
Makin more insecure
And i am afraid of anything can happen
Like last time ya nv scold at me b4
Nv so cruel b4
Nv said those hurtful thing to so jia lat to me b4
But yet u did
Like the hurt u said u gonna go and find a gf by tat day
And u realli did
And lying to me u r workin
When u r not
But actualli wit ya friends
Is so disappointin to noe the truth tat u rather be wit yr friend den me
Somehow sometimes i realli envy the couples around me
Their bf are so tender to them
I noe i cannot compare
And it cannot be compare
U hab yr gd points too
U r gd to me too
Think is maybe our thinkings still not tat mature
Therefore we will keep on quarrel ba

I am realli afraid of losing everything again
Tat feeling is scary
I dun wanna repeat the history
Doing those foolish things again
Pls let me hab a way out
I learnt from u and tis relationship
Bf is not everything
Life need friends too
I used to gif up all my friends for u
And wen we break
U noe hw i suffer outside?
Alone?
I used to hab a lot of friends
But cos of tis relationship
My friends become lesser and lesser
Though maybe my friends cannot be compared to the bonds u hab wit yr brothers
But they still my friends
They are the ones who share the sadness wit me
Witout them
Hw can i face all the hurt alone?
When u r sad
U do wan someone to care for u
Rite?

Haiz !~
I dunno wad should i do now?
Realli in confusion
Wad will be the rite way out for us?
Break or not?
Frankly speaking
I am touched by wad u say ytd
Though tears keep rolling down my face
When u r fierce to me
I hate the attitude u used on me
But noeing hw much u did for me
And hw i finally meant to u
I do realli appreciate
Yes ~
We 2 are truly in love
But we keep having problems and problems again
Should we end it?
Stop the pain we 2 been through
Maybe i am selfish ba
I should make the move to break
To prevent u being sad
As ppl always say
When u love someone
U wan him to be happy
So if i let go of him
He can be happier
Why not?
Yes
Cos of u
I get a lot of hurt
Y not get one last hurt to break wit u
And stop the hurt we r suffering?

Gif me some time to think abt it ba
I realli hope there is a solution
And i dun wan boiboi and galgal to become the legend
Or become the past memory
U noe?

2008-10-15T15:06:00.000+08:00

My belt loosens slowly.

Reminders of you stay freshin murky ponds of suffocating tadpoles.
Wake me in the morning,when the sun shines again.It's frightening when all I knowfalls apart.

And all I know is you.Hunger squeezes me tighter.My soul sags with exhaustion.

Ashtrays fill with sleepless nights.Weeping intensifies my anxiety.

Can tomorrow come without you...here today?

The cheap chandelier falls on my face.

The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.

Pain is unrecognizable.

All I knew was you.

You.

My love.

2008-10-15T11:21:00.002+08:00

Hurts are beyond words
Words can nv describe them
Is by the experience

Promises are meant to be made?
Who will wan to break the promise when they are not unhappy or waD?
Ask yrself y will u break the promises last time ne?
Ya do it on purpose or accidently de?
Is aso cos of sadness,rite?
When u r sad
Maybe is hard to think abt those promises ba
Maybe u can said i changed?
Realistic make me changes
I dun wan to
Cos i am afraid
Afraid of i cannot face the fact of losing u
Few times of experience
I noe the feeling of losing u
And whether i can tak it or not?

I am sad eventually
Sad cos of the date being del
Even those they are just few numbers
But it just meant a lot
But u said i am the one who del 1st
Think is computer error ba
Maybe i used my bro de laptop
So the nick is different ba

Tell u tis ba
I will jealous if any gals wanna snatch u away from me
But i won go and scold them or wad
Cos i dun wan mak things difficult to u
I will scold them behind their back but not in front of them
And moreover i dun wan district ya too much le
Scarly i realise if i go scold her
U will end up siding her
I will be more sad
So rather i keep it inside my heart
And is aso a test for us
Been through for abt 1 yr le
Another gal can catches yr heart
I aso hab nth to say
Maybe i am just not gd as her ba
I will still sad and disappointed
After been through so much
Yet u will choose another gal

But i hab the trust in u
Just like u hab in me
If u wanna noe the ans
Tat if u r close wit other gal
Will i sad or not?
I tell u tis
I will sad
But i aso wan to let u noe
If i eat wit other guy
Is not i realli wan de
Is cos of no other gals there

I admit sometimes i will feel insecure
As there is always gals around u
Gals brought out by yr friends
But wad can i do even i sad?
Can i ask yr friends dun bring those gals out?
Or ask u dun go out wit yr friends whenever there is gals?
Cannot,rite?
If i gonna do tat
We will quarrel again
And making things difficult for u again

I learnt i gonna be mentally prepared for things who might happen
I hab one friend
She recieve a call from her family
Saying her pet dog die
And she burst into tears
She said the dog is still okay tat morning de
See ~
Everything seems okay de can happen too
I understand her feeling for losing her pet dog
If i am her
I will be sad too
Losing a dog which is like a family member to me
And the bonding will be there
And the habit of having it wit me
The memories we gt
Is realli sad for ppl to take it
But tat is life
Life is always tat cruel
It makes me afraid of getting a puppy too
I am afraid of facing the fact tat i lose it
As well as i start to afraid of losing anyone around me
A dog can cause a big impact to ppl
Why not a human?

Ytd celebrating SQ bday o
Hope she enjoy it
Despite the surprises we wanna gif her failed
Cos of each mouth of us
Is kenna funny na
1st is belbel
Told her we goin eat at cck park
Then next is me
Suddenly said eddy gt come when we lie to her he nv come
Den next is clarence
Said alson gt come when we lie to her he nv come
So every plan fails yea
Haas

We aso damn bad na
Put lots of foods on her plate
And put cake onto her face
hees
I am so afraid she will put on my face
Lucky i gt mental prepare
So when i saw her digging the cream
I pull rosebel
And we 2 ran away 1st
Haas
Lucky nv kanna any cake =)
Hees
Somemore when we wanna light the cake
We ask her to go far far
Den pretend she dunno we r giving her the cake
Lol
Den she realli go far far na
Waiting fer us to gif her surprise
Lol
Is so damn funny
Haas
I love my friends yea
Especially Rosebel and SQ

And randomly
I realise more and more ppl calling me sotong le
OMG
I gonna live the name of sotong
Arghhh
Y every class i go or which grp of friends i wit?
I everytime will get a nickname de?
Still remember my sec nick is zhu tou
Den ding ding long long
Den hey you
Den wad xiao meimei
Den dunno wad na
TOo much to remember
Lol
Now sotong

Haiyo ~
Do u ppl noe why i put the msn nick i wanna be like sunflower?
Even though is sound funny
But i realli hope to be like her
A sunshine who ppl see le
Will feel she is happy
Do u even see ppl use sunflower when she sad?
It represent sun, brightness, happiness, cheerful, and sunshine
I wan to let ppl see the happy me
Always be happy yea

Now i realise my life is no life
Keep schoolin and working
I wanna go sentosa when i free yea
Suddenly hab the urge of goin some places tat has sunshine
I wan to be a sunshine gal yea =)

2008-10-13T23:10:00.003+08:00

Fuck life ~

Sian
2day gt to go work after sch
Was damn tired now man
Somemore no sales de na
Pls gif me sales next time yea

Hai ~
Why?
Why the happiness can't just stay there for gd?
Witout any unhappiness goin on again
Explain and explain
Trying and trying
Disappointed and disappointment
I am just abt to go crazy
Why can't i keep on praising my life ne?
Hw happi am i wit u?
Whenever i start praising
Bad things come yea
I realli hope we can just keep on qian jiu each other
Keep in going yea

Gonna play typing game wit my dear dear le
Dunno hw is his performance le?
Think he surely gt keep on practising de
If lose to him
aso can lose to too nan kan
Or else ltr he sure laugh at me de =(

2008-10-12T00:50:00.002+08:00

Today i off work earlier to celebrate for belbel de bday
Kenna feel quite bad
But i realli hope i can mak her day happy
As is her 18th bday
And i understand wad 18th yr old the bday mean to gals
Somemore i heard tat she quarrel wit her bf
So mak me wanna mak her happier
But was kenna pissed off
As the plan is not well organised
Like wadever thing i planned is not carried nicely
Somemore the timing too
I went to punch card to get ready to Bugis
But yet the others still at home
But even though i am pissed off
I got to calm down
Cos is rosebel bday
I must gif face to her
But actually after 2day
I feel better after knowing she enjoyed her bday
And i aso get to know hw gd my new friends are
They are really nice person
Even tat person who i think is very bad
Make me feel tat tat person is actualli not tat bad
I noe tat person is feelin veri sad cos of relationship
But tat person dun wanna say out
Though is quite disappointing y tat person dun wanna share
Since we r all friends
But is understandable ba
Like for my relationship problem
I aso dun like to share wit other ppl
But hope keeping it to heart will be better ba

2day some of my friends are quite drunk
Seldom see ppl drunk de
Now i noe the feelin of the ppl being not drunk
Haas
Hope Shiqi is feelin better
Wondering why she drink so much?
Is it cos she is feeling low?
Hope she will feel better after drinking ba =)
Dun like seeing my friends sad sad o
Hope everybody around me will be happy =)

And also hope belbel will enjoy her bday yea
Gd luck to her

When i online
my dear dear send me tis

We turn away to face the cold, enduring chill, as the day begs the night for mercy love. The sun so bright it leaves no shadows, only scars, carved into stone on the face of earth. The moon is up and over One Tree Hill we see the sun go down in your eyes.

I keep reading
Wondering wad it mean
Thought is love poem or wad
But actualli is the link i sent him
Competing who type the faster the game
And he go and copy the passage
And practise by sending online msg to me
Funny rite?
Thought he will find the game boring
But in fact
He keep practising na
So funny na him
And so cute of him
Hees
My dear dear is getting more and more cute le
Hees

These days i am wondering
Will there be a day when a couple 2gether
And one of them fall in love wit another people?
But i think it won apply to me
As how can i bear leaving my cute dear dear
I admit i does fall in love wit guys who are good looking
Or sad when they love another person
But think i love them cos of their look ma
And when noeing each other better
jiu won like le
But for me and my dear dear
I love his character
Love the way he is
Even if i found someone better looking than him
But the memories we had
Won be so easy replaced de
And those gd looking guy aso cannot replace the actions he did
And hw cute he is
And the laughter he bring to me
He nv feel to make me laugh
Pondering is he think the same way as me?

4 wrds i wanna say to him
I really love u

2008-10-10T14:01:00.002+08:00

Paiseh for the late late update
Let me tell u my day for my 1st day being 18th yr adult =)
Haas
Tat day we wanna go escape de
But when we reach JE
We den realise is not opened =(
So we went to chinatown de K box
Realli had a great time there
And a miracle
Tat wang zhi keep on shouting? Or singing?
Haas
And they went to get me a bday cake
So touched
Hees
Wow
So happi tis yr i gt 3 cakes in my 18th bday
And gt all my sweet sweet friends and loved ones wit me
Hees
Den after tat
We went to sentosa
And we played volleyball
Tat wang zhi be our coach man
And poor us
Get blue black on our hands man
But is fun
And aso can lose fats de hor

Tat all for my bday
And now wang zhi is gone for his ns
Hees
My dear classmates aso went to get me a banana and ben and jerry ice cream
Thanks thanks
hees
Love everyone around me =)

Hees
Tml gonna celebrate for rosebel bday
Hope it will be an enjoyable 18th bday for her too
Hees
O ya O ya
Ytd acc dear dear to polyclinic
He aso acc me to buy prepaid card
and O yea
I changed my number
Eeeeeeeeeee
My tat dear dear keep sayin i am kaypo
Kaypo gt wrong meh?
And i am not,okay?
Haiyo =(

2008-10-05T21:31:00.003+08:00

She is feeling happy =)
Who is feeling happy?
Me me me ~
YES ME ~

Lol
Tis few days i realli hab a great days
Like ytd de ytd
My sisters they all celebrate bday for me yea
Brought me to a high class restaurant
Wow
And
A bday cake for me
Thanks them so much
And sry for goin home early
Was realli veri tired tat day
LOve u all yea
Realli enjoy myself man
Hees
And was realli glad tat even we leave our sec sch
But our friendship is still there
Some of them hab been wit me for 6 years o
Hees
I realli miss the days i hab wit them in sec sch

O ya
On tat day
My dear dear secretly go town and buy my dream necklace for me yea
Haiyo
I should not ask for his opinion when pass by the shop
Or even tell him wad i like man
Is like hai
Heart pain pain to see him buy for me
Love him so much yea
For doting on me so much wor =)

Hees
And now he celebrating bday for me yea
=)
Hees
And he secretly go buy me a bday cake wor
The cake is so nice na
And today he is so nice to me na
Though other days he aso veri nice to me
But 2day is the best
Cos he nv bully me much
And he keep listen to wad i say yea
Hees
And his sweet little bro
Bought me a present too =)
Wow
Feel so touched na
His little bro
Still will do something for me
Saw tat cute little toy
And thought of my bday
Den buy tat as my gift
So sweet of him na
I feeling so so happi now o

so happy o
I feel so fortunate wor =)
Is beem long i hab yet so happi wor =)
Shall post all my presents after my bday as a memories =)

hees
Tis yr the bday i feel so damn xin fu na
Like celebrate quite a number of times
Wit my sisters
Wit my dear dear
Haas
tis two days i already ate 2 times of cake le
Dunno will there be more cakes
Lol
Hees
Thinkin abt cake
I jiu recall how we play wit the cake during my sec sch
So damn fun na +)
Wees
shall stop here man
And go to pei my dear dear le o
Tata =)

2008-10-02T14:13:00.002+08:00

I can say tat tis few days i really enjoy it
If it can remains like dat always
I will be more than happy
He is kenna sweet to me nowdays
Hees
Everytime think of him
I could not bear it
But smile
Thinking abt he has those bruises on his body and face
I feel so funny
Thought wad happen to him
But in fact he having westling wit his bros
Funny na Him
Always behave like a kid de
Haiyoyo
Hees
Dunno y he like won grow up de lei
Today is his 1st day of work
Shall wish him good luck here yea =)
Hope it won be too tough for him

And realli sry too
Nowaday like mak him unhappy o
Promise him not to be drunk
Yet i nv keep my promise
I am so sorry

Hees
Ytd i cook foods yea
Wit my dear cousin
Hees
A busy and challenging task for us
Wooo
But the end result not so bad na
Then after cookin
I cab down to bring the foods to him
Cos i dun wan waste time on transport
Wanna spend more time wit Him
Plus i dun wan the foods to get cold
Hees
Like a laopo cook for laogong na

Today
I wish upon zhi yi and his gf patch too
2day recieve a call from his gf
She sound so sad na
Heard she like dat
I also so sad o
Become no moods le o
I noe the pain she is suffering
Hope she will be back to the happy her too
Ltr i gonna meet her
Tml is her N lvl
Hope i really gd enough to cheer her up
And motivate her to study hard
Study is related to her future
Dun be of a relationship
And waste 10 plus years of hardship
Even though it is easy to say
But wan to do it
It will be damn difficult
May god gif her strength to be strong

2008-09-29T12:21:00.005+08:00

Wooo

I am getting bankrupt =(

Nowaday keep spendin money wor

And there are still more to buy =)

My dream necklace

~ Swarovski Crystals ~

NICE,RITE?
Should be $80 plus, let estimate $90

And i wanna get myself a legging again =(

Why is there a =( there?

It is cos few days back

I already bought a legging at 77th street for 19.90

And in the end

It gt a hole =(

And it is like i haven wear at all na

haiyo
I Gonna get cheap cheap one le
Maybe at cotton on ba
My friend say the leggin there
Is 2 for 20$

And i wanna get a new bagpack too
Perhaps at 77th street $39.90

And i also wan tat galgal long tee shirt at far east the pushcart at far east
Cost me $12

And i wanna change all my make up to anna sui
Need maybe $140

And ...
Rest i haven think of

So total i need
$302 for all these things

O man ~
Gonna save le =(

2008-09-28T11:20:00.002+08:00

9 more days and i will be a adult =)
Dunno hw will be the day of being adult like?
Will i get a memorable bda tis yr?
I realli hope so =)

One thing i wanna share abt
Ytd he come and find me lei =)
Hees
Actualli fri i still sad sad de
Cos all my friends are meeting their bf tat day
And he is busy to meet me
But ytd he come find me lei
At 1st he went out wit his friends de
Then go home
Then come out again
And find me o
I thought he is waitin at home for me
As when i call him
He said he wanna go bath now
Den Dunno y when i off work
He msg me
And called me
B4 i see his msg
He jiu called me le
Den i said i just off work
Den he said he went downstairs to buy things so i believe
But dunno y he msg and called again
I was wonderin y he today like so anxious where am i
Lol
Is cos he come and find me
Haas
He even ask his friend to call me to check where am i workin 2day
Yet i nv suspect anything at all
Everytime he do somethin i will suspect
But tis time
I really get tricked by him o
Lol ~
But he still dun like to shop wit me =(
Keep naggin walk so far and hot
Lol
Small boi like him is like dat de
Onli like to play
And inpatient =X
But when he get older
He will acc his wife or gf le wor
Lol
I said till i veri mature xia
Haas
At his hse
We gt a small small conflict o
Cos him na
Everytime veri tired and sleepy
His temper won be tat gd le
Haiyo
Pig na
Now i noe when he will gif attitude le
Is onli when he is TIRED na
So next time if i wanna ask him lots of questions
I should ask him when he jus wake up le
But in de end is okay na

Weee...
9 more days to be a adult
And 10 more days to our 2nd month anniversary le =)
Gambette to more happy days

Is kenna sweet to hold hands
Th3Gal

Where is my colour of my life?

2008-09-21T07:58:00.003+08:00

20 september
I was feelin lousy
Purposely off work early just to gif him a surprise
Though i realli feel veri guilty of leaving 1st
And keep on hesitate should i leave 1st?
But i force myself to go
Cos i wanna gif him a surprise

When i reach his hse
He playing computer
So i wait for him
Den when coming to eaing our dinner
His friend msg him
Ask him to go the another friend hse to celebrate dunno who de birthday
And he was unsure whether he should go
At tat point of time, is 7,45pm
If he goes?
What abt me?
Stay at Yr hse to wait for u again?
If u stand in my shoes
Wad will u feel?
When u come and find me
And when we was about to hab dinner
And my heart feel like goin to find my friends?
Maybe u can bring me go
Though i dun mind acc u Go
But isit whenever there is time wit u
There is a sudden msg from yr friend
Askin u to go out
Then i gt to go wit u?
Then where goes our personal time?
U already hab so mani time wit yr friends le
Almost everyday meet them
And i nv meet u everyday lei

If like dat
Wat is the point of i coming to find u
When i noe if there is a msg from yr friend
U will be tempted to find them
My being is just invisible
And i offer to acc u
Cos i noe even i can keep yr body by my side
But yr heart is still wit yr friends
Yet u dun wan
And nv speak much
Pulling a long face to me
Where am i wrong?
Can u tell me?

I feel hurt
Yet i still try to console u
Offered to acc u go
Yet u also dun wan
Tired le
Also go home alone

Has u stand in my shoes and think for me?
In fact i can dun go yr hse and find u
In fact i has the choices to go out late wit my friends
Has fun 2gether
Why should i go find u and do nth much in the hse 2gether
Watchin tv, talk, see u play com?
And gt to go home alone?

Hai
Sad ~
Y am i stucked here?
Pls help me to move on
And let me be strong

Ps: U still dun understand my feelings
Maybe u r a perfect friend in yr friendship
But ...

My world of black and white
Can i hab my colour of the life back?

2008-09-20T20:37:00.002+08:00

Is been so long i hab last post
Hello everybody
U all forgot my blog le ma?
Hees
Remember to tag me when u all free,okay?
To let me noe tat at least tis blog has its reader too de
Then i will be more motivated to write more entrys yea

Wee...
I wan another gathering yea
Shopping Shopping Shopping
Rosebel, Shiqi
Let go shopping and chill out hor =)
There a lot more to explore more man
Next time we should go vivo city,sentosa,ice skating? and chinese garden
LOl
And a lot a lot more yea
=)
Hees
I wan to hab fun man
Dun wan to work =(
So tiring =(
O man, i am getting more and more lazy le
Shit man
No money, how to spend money ne?
Okay
Randomly
I gt nth to write le
Tata

I HOPE all my friends are happy yea =)
Hees
AND SOMEONE, pls share yr sadness wit me hor
U noe who u r huh
Dun tell me, i jiu dun wan friend u le =X

Th3Gal
I wanna to be the happy gal always

2008-08-07T13:12:00.002+08:00

Everything ended today
So unbearable
The msg he sent
Will find a gf by 2day
And we ended ....

Heart is so damn pain
Till i cannot breathe
Runnin out of breath like ashma attack
Tears droppin and droppin
And i cannot control myself
And did a foolish thing
I noe i am silly and tupi
Cos of a relationship
Cannot kang kai
But one thing i can say is
He is the one i love deeply
I noe is my fault cos
I said i won contact ya 4ever le
But is my anger words
As i dunno ya izzit dun wan reply me

I am lost
I am tired
I am hurt
Hurt deeply
I dunno how to get out of my life
I realli hope the time can stop now
And i cannot think of anything
Hai
My 8th of aug is gone
A day we set to be the day we 2gether
Now no more le
Hai

2008-07-24T15:03:00.002+08:00

Living in fear ~
A life wit no sense of secure
Afraid tat something will happen to u anytime
Troubled cos of dat gal dat suddenly pop up
Who is the hell is she?
Askin me hw r u?
She asked Elaine too
Hai
Sometimes i realli dunno hw long can i hang on
Ability to endure to the end to the day u gif up on me?
I am madly in love
Till i cannot get out of tis trap
Somehow i am realli sufferin
Realli veri xin ku
All i can do is bear wit it
Even msg ya too much or call ya i also need to gif it a thought
Everything is so not natural
Is all i forcing myself to do it
Even missing ya i also force myself not to
I dunno wad wrong wit me
All i noe is dat my love life now is realli complicated
I realli hope there is someone to help me get out of it
Gif me sense of direction
I really lose my way
Not onli in real life
But in my heart and mind too =(
I dun wan to be a sadist
Where is the happy me gone to?
I hang on wit tis relationship all cos i realli miss the days we been through 2gether
I dun wan to just gif up like dat
We been through so much 2gether
Is not worth it
HaI
I used to be the one who keep on wantin break when we quarrel
But tis time round
I changed
But pls guide me along, can?
Treat me better and let me sense yr love

God pls tell me wad should i do?
I realli need yr help

Th3Sadist

2008-06-24T15:09:00.002+08:00

Moving back to ytd, 23 june
Firstly it is our 7th month anniversary
But sadly he is not there wit me
But is okay ne
Understandable
Ytd also a tupi day i hab
I thought Linjia is goin sch
So i keep waiting fer her msg
But waiting and waiting
I am wondering why is it so late she still hab not call
Den i still to remember she is on holiday
So i faster left my hse
Waiting and waiting for the arrival of the bus
I finally saw 966
So i rush to tak de bus
And prepared to meet corene at sch 7 eleven there
As time pass by
I start to feel wierd why it is so long i stil hab not reach ne
And also see the first busstop after the highway
It is not goin woodlands de but goin orchard
WTF
I faster get down the bus
Wanting to tak cab but i am broke
ATM also no money le
Hai ~
So i took 190 back to my hse den to sch again
Feel like dun go sch
But cannot pon le
Hai
Gonna downgraded again
Is like so many times i kanna downgraded de na
This is what a day i hab
So so tiring ~

Today is the 2nd day of lab series competition
Tryin hard to ask my friends in RP to buy
But sadly i sold nth
And also went around to ask ppl i dunno to buy
Also kanna rejected
Hai ~
Feel so guilty like nv help my class much
Nv sell anythin
=(

12 more days

2008-06-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Another day pass like tis ~
Today wad workin at morning paragon
After work
When i abt to go home
I happen to see Yu heng, my gan kor kor
He a veri nice person man
Dunno y everytime see him
I will talk a lot
And feel veri comfortable
Like won scare of being ps by him
Maybe tis called fate to be friends ba
Not onli friends but best friends forever
We went to the man branded shop at orchard
As his friend wanna buy jeans
His friend also a nice people
Just like yu heng
Won cos of his friend, ps me
Somemore when i dun wan play pool or basketball
He keep askin me to join in
Tis is wad true friends are
After walkin here and there
We have a sudden thought
Which is wanna go singapore pool
To buy the le yi le
We went to lucky plaza to buy
But is out of stock le
So the 3 crazy of us
Cab down to park lane there to buy
But the taxi driver bring us to the park mall instead
So we walk from park mall to park lane
Is quite far man
We should tak bus or mrt instead
Much more nearer and cheaper
Wahaha
I bought 10 pieces
But onli win $2
Den buy another 5 again
Den win $2
Den buy 2 again
And win $5
So total i lose $8
But is okay
Is so fun na
After tat yuheng and his friend went to tak caB
They gif me a drive to bugis MRT station too
But in de end de taxi uncle stop us at raffles hospital there
LOL ~
Dunno y today taxi driver keep driving us to the wrong place
So funny lo

Hehe
Anyway i realli hab a great time man
Hope my everyday will be like today so enjoyable =)
May i enjoy my days everyday
And peace everyday
Wee..
Gd luck Gd sales tml man
Commission gambette =_=

PS I HATE HIM

2008-06-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

Another sad day i hab ~
Ytd midnight Yong Wei called and ask me to join him to escape
At 1st i dun wanna go de
Cos i am sick and still got to wake up so early
But due to we quarrel b4
And if i reject him
I scare tis friendship will gone
So i agree
Tis escape trip is goin wit His gf and friends
So i am thinkin maybe is a chance for me to mak new friends too
Cos recently damn bored na
Like nobody ask me out de
And saw yongwei everyday also got program like dat
like veri fun
So today wake up early in de mornin
And get myself prepared
Went to cck to meet Yw
Den headed to escape
Total there is 2 gals and 4 guys
1st thing tat make me upset is dat
When we went to de haunted hse
I am so scared la
Cos i so afraid of tat thingy
And i kanna left behind
Next time go escape confirm wanna go wit bf better
Den de next thing is tat we went play de car thingy
Tupi Yw bang onto me
And just drove off
Lucky still gt his friend's acc
Which i onli noe for 1 day
Can be comparable to him
Who i noe for years
Hai

Den after we left escape
I become a bit emo
Cos thinkin if got bf beside me better
At least got ppl to protect me
Like Yw protectin his gf
Hai
Thinkin ppl gt bf beside them
But mine?
Hai
And they keep talkin
Like nv talk much to me de lei
So damn bored la
Like nobody care like dat
Den i walk infront
Listen to songs
Dun wan bother abt them
While listen to songs
Feel so lonely
Den tears start to drop down
Hai
So i keep on walkin
And they are all behind me
Even red light
I also just walk
walk and walk
Till interchange there
I den realise is de end le
And they are not behind me
And i dunno where can i go?
Somemore i dunno de place there
Then i sit at the interchange there
Keep on cryin and called my cousin
And den cab home
Also cried in de cab from there to my hse
Tis journey i could not believe tat
He does nt even gif me a call
I hate him so so much la
So from today onwards he is no longer my friend
Dun ever mention his name to me
I hate him forever
And i will nv forgif him de
PS I HATE HIM

Den when i reach home
I msg him
He said he is sry
He thought i am emoin abt my bf so he let me alone
LOL ~
Wad a gd excuse
Ppl emo jiu dun need to go home de la
Can left at pasir ris alone na?
And said he is tired...
Den he start callin me
His gf too
Askin me to forgif him
But still
I will nv forgif him de
Nv forget abt today incident
Cos i nv so jia lat b4
Kanna treated like dat
Blame me as a fool
To trust him won ps me de

Days without him
It make my life pathetic

Gal wit tears

2008-06-17T23:51:00.004+08:00

Again, long time nv blog le
Life without him
Is realli miserable
Living in the days wit tears
Sometimes i feel so lonely
Dunno wad should i do
Listenin the song 一个人
Thinkin abt Him again ~
Life become so bored
Everyday wake up wit no purpose
No where to go
Sometimes i does empathize on myself too
Why my life become lke dat
keep on cryin and there is no him beside me to console me
Cryin loudly inside my own room
Dun wan anyone to noe
I still remember the few days after he is gone
My eyes is swollen every single day
And i could not stop cryin
Even on the bus
I can still cry
At de workplace also cry
Clumsy de me nobody to takcare of for the time being le
I lost my way and get myself drench in the rain
Keep fallin sick
Now is the third times i fallin sick le
Why ne?
Izzit mood does affect health?
Ppl who noe me well, should noe i am a gal wit laughter
But now, i can onli smile
And not like last time
Can laugh till out of breath
Temper also change le
And i totally in the loss
Get myself change for a new haircut and style
Hopin i can get rid of the sadness
But i still could not
Sadness mak me change
Mak me become different
I wan to be the one who u pamper on
I realli miss the days being pampered on
Do u noe i am realli sufferin outside?
I am thinkin whether will there be one day
U leave me cos of other gals?
I hab proven my love to u is true
Without leavin u for all these days
Even go out wit guys also dun hab
Sometimes i realli afraid that wad i did
I will regret
Maybe when u contribute more
U will get afraid more
I am thinkin if one day u ever leave me for a gal
I realli will go mad ba
Or maybe i should just gif up on relationship
U de one who mak me done so much
I realli expect my love for u can be so deep
Till i suffer like tis
Get stronger and stronger
Becos i noe i realli love eu
Even i met wit so mani obstacles
But for u
I will hang on
Cos i dun wan lose someone i realli love
Last time i nv even say i love u to my bf
But now i wanna tell u
U de one i realli love
I wan to be wit u not for months
But is serious lastlongin relationship
I dun wan both of us to hab change in tis relationship
I wan to be yr baby ever ~
Stubborn me shall pay for my stubborness
Lovin euu mak my life worthwhile
All i noe is tat i can't live witout u
Wad abt u?
I will be waitin fer the day u r out
And u will be fetchin me from sch
Let me see a gd boi,okay?
Dun mak me tear anymore,okay?
I dun mind to drop million of tears for u
Onli dat i hope to appreciate it
And cherish our relationship
And be a gd boi and dun break my hope for u again
Pls

Gal wit tears

2008-05-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hi everybody
Been long time since i last blog le
Now his next court date will be on the 23 of may
ANd o ya
I got a great experience today
My boi drive me home
O man
I still can't imagine i finally got up his bike
I told him b4
Dat i will nv get on to his bike
But finally
Haha
Is a fun and exciting experience
And is just a short short journey
From his hse to my hse nia
Haha
I trust his drivin skills
But dun trust myself
Lol
Cos even sitting on the bus
I nearly fall down too

O ya
Today he come my sch look for me wor
He is always so nice to me
I hope i mak de right choice =)

2008-04-24T04:14:00.002+08:00

It is 4.15am now
I stilll could not get to slp
Gastric is so so pain
Ytd night drank 5 bottles of vodka
And i vomitted at around 1 plus
Till now my gastric still so so pain
Make me unable to slp

Gastric pain is equal to my heart pain
While i am typing tis entry
I just vomitted again
So xin ku
Suddenly my stomach feel wierd and vomit out
Is my first time vomit cos of drinking
Last time i used to drink 5 bottles too
But yet still can tahan
Can feel dat my gastric is becomin realli bad le
Just now eat medicine
Still no better
I just see doctor last week
And she told me to go polyclinic check out
Actually suppose to go ytd wit the accompany of my cousin
But suddenly tis thing happens
Everything change
Even work i also nv go
ALl cos of wantin to find replacement
I cried when my colleagues reject me
But thanks felicia
She noe i am veri sad
So she cancel her church thingy
And when she called back
I am also cryin
Y i become tis state
Everyone around me also noe i am veri sad
I cried continuely tis 3 days after knowin his thing
EVeryday i wake up in de mornin
My eyes swollen
I just could not stop cryin
Ytd i drank in front of him
Cried in front of him again
I am so sorry
I noe i should not be sad in front of him
It will only add on to his sadness
But i jus could not control

I truly love him a lot
I cried cos he gonna leave me
Cos of the escape case thingy
They asked him to go court on monday
But now changed to fri le
How can i live without him ne?
I will miss him a lot de
I wan him to feed me
Shower me wit care
Made me laugh
Pamper me
Said i am piggy
Sms me
Care for me
Stop me from drinkin cold stuffs
Play wit me
Watch show wit me
Go shoppin wit me
Accompany me
Gif me a listenin ear
I realli dunno wad de life will be like witout him
Fri is drawin nearer le
How?how?how?
I dun bear him
No matter wad i will wait fer him de
I wan to cycle wit euu
Is our promise
Boiboi, i love eu loads

Galgal(heart is feelin cold)

2008-04-17T15:00:00.003+08:00

Wha
Again ~
It been long time seem i last blog
Well
Now i am currently schoolin and workin at the same time
Ppl who noe me well
Should noe i love spendin money
So now i must work hard to earn more
So i CAN SPEND MORE?

And fer me and him?
Things become more and more stable le
Haha
More less time for each other
As i need to study and work
And he aso need to work
But we promised we will use our free time to meet up de
Hei
Miss him so much
My baby boi =X

Hai
But there one thing dat make me upset
I felt neglected
For why i felt neglected in sch?
I dun wanna bring up
Is not cos of my current class
Hai
Things always changes
I miss the time we gals together

Th3Gal

2008-03-28T14:57:00.002+08:00

Wooo ~
Is a off day fer me
Wee
Happy dat nowadays less and less zero sales le wor
Let recall back
On 26 march
Boiboi so sweet wor ^^
He bought me cookies and my favourite "HONEY GREEN TEA WIT SMALL PEARLS"
Haha
He brought it to centrepoint(where i work)
Heihei
But i not there
Cos i went out to eat curry chicken wit bread wit huimin
So xin fu o
Gt so mani things to eat
Think will become a fat fat pig soon now or later le ba
Hehe
Den at about 7pm
He bought cute cute de cupcake for me
But cannot come in
Cos robinson is closed for members from 6.30pm onwards
So he head home
And i went to his hse after work
To enjoy de cupcake and wang zhi milk ^^
Hehe
He always cheer me up wit all my favourites
Wahaha
He said i "GREEDY" lo
Arghh
And he is de one who mak me look greedy de na
Haha
Cheat me lo
pass me de M&M choco
Which is de eyes for de cupcake
Den cry and said i greedy
Eat his choco
Bad lo
Arghh
Next time i should disturb him back liao
Haha
Den i stay at his hse to watch de mask
So so funny and interestin
De baby so cute nor
Gt super power de sia
Stay at his hse till quite late sia
Veri lazy to walk home lo
But still need to go home
Hai
Den de next day mornin
Quarrel wit mum again
Hai
Spoil my days
Cos they dun wan me be wit him
But i dun care
I wan mean i wan
They keep on naggin lo
Whenever i at home
They will nag
And keep aski where i go
Who i wit
Veri de xin ku lo
Like i am a prisoner wit no freedom
Hai
Ytd cried on de bus home
Veri stress
Dun wanna cry le na
If my parents wana force me to break up wit him again
I would rather leave hse,die den leave him la
Cos i truly love him
I dun wan leave or lose him
I dun wan tears to wash my face everyday
I am happi wit him
Hope one day i can get out of de problem ba

Ps ~ I am sorry

2008-03-18T23:49:00.004+08:00

Maybe i changed?
Last time i nv said sorry to guys dat ...
But now i did said
I even feel sorry fer ...
Wad is goin on wit me ne?
Words does touches
Feelin hard to describe
All cos i am blindly in love
In life, we can onli choose one as our partner
And wen we choosed dat somebody
We must be firm
I realli dun care
Dun care wad will de future be
Even though there might not be happy endin
Or maybe my efforts will go waste
I still will put all my efforts in
Wit fear in my life
Afraid dat ya will be gone in anytime
Problems come and tak euu away
I noe i will cry like mad
If they gonna tak euu away
I noe wen they tak euu away
I will hab no shoulder to lean on anymore
Even how much i cried
I still won get euu back
I just hope euu are fine
Promised me euu won get into any troubles again
I noe i sound cruel to say
If euu create one more trouble
I will be gone
I just wanna stop ya from creatin troubles
We both noe it will be saddenin if euu lose the other parties
And we could not afford to~
I realli truly love euu
Hopin we will last 4ever

Even though my parents object
But wit eu by my side
I dun mind
I realli dun mind gettin beaten again by my father
Just cos i go find euu
Even he beat me till my last breath of my life
I won gif up to him
I will still tell him
I WON LEAVE EUU
I will tried my best
Even those naggin everyday realli gonna drive me mad
But i believe it is worth it
To love someone
We need to love to the fullest
No matter wad cost
No matter hw hard
Cos love is just so formidable ^^

2008-03-05T02:17:00.002+08:00

I am gettin nuts
Why nowaday ppl say i dao gettin more and more?
I realli dun understand wad ppl wan
Like him
Ytd say i come find u okay?
Den i say anythin
Den he said wan or dun wan
So i said dun wan, dun wan trouble eu
But end up say i dismoralise him
Hai
And a while say me and him cannot click
Also dunnno hw to click wit me
Like me and him veri far apart
And always say dun wan to bother me anymore
Den a while say if i need him
Can go find him
Veri funny,rite?
Hai
Realli dunno hw
Den now someone say if i continue dao like tis
He might get angry
Like veri lol la
If i am not dao
Ppl will say i keep on flirtin when i gt the guy i like le
But if i am dao
Ppl will get pissed off by me
I realli dunno hw le
Izzit cos of a relationship
I will lose friendship?
I seriously dunno hw to handle le
My characteristic is seldom approach ppl 1st de
And i could not change
Cos tis is wad i am
And i noe if i always auto contact guys
He will sad de
I dun wan him sad
Hai
I hope for friendship
Havin a guy friend
But i could not hold on to any friendship
I am such a failure
When i gt someone i love
I dunno hw to handle friendship...
As well as relationship
hai
I dunno hw to reject guys and also keep them as my friends
I onli noe hw to mak guys as enemies
Hai
Sotong as a nickname is so rite for me
Always blur blur
Not knowin hw to handle situations well
Hai
Tml trainin le
Hope tml will go well ba
Jia you ~!

2008-03-02T01:12:00.002+08:00

Today wake up early wor
To go town look fer his presents
Finally bought a tee shirt and a wallet for him
It mak me in dilemma lo
Realli dunno wad to get fer him
Hai
Nv gif him any big big surprise o
Mouth always spilt out words
Cannot keep anythin from him
Maybe cos i love him
So everythin i also dun wan lie to him
Hehe
I also bought myself a bracelet
Hehe
And today my sale also not bad
Must jia you jia you and earn more money wor
Hehe
Lavonne also replied and said
Veri gd, keep it up
Wow
Wad a encouragin words
Lol
Even just now a bit unhappi
Cos she nv teach us ....
Den blame on me .....
But nvm
Used to it le
Haha
Hmmm...
Today come to realise
I am his milk bottle
Which he like a bit
I am sry to mak euu disappointed in your lowest peak of life
I noe euu just break off wit yr gf
And still need to suffer a blow
But my heart onli gt him
When i am in love
I will put my heart and soul in him
My heart won shake le
Is not dat ppl who like me is not gd enough
Is just dat i am too in love in him
A pity is dat guys always contact gals when they want them to love them
Or the guy like dat gal
But once they kanna rejected or wad
They will stop contactin
Hai
Can't i hab a true guy friend?

2008-02-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hai ~
Still havin sore throat
Today work at Taka o
So sian
And today a suay day for me xia
My legs gettin more and more blisters
All cos of tat tupi shoes
And throat still pain
And also feel dizzy today
As i nv eat from 12pm to 11pm
Somemore still tak wrong train
Hai
Y am i always the pathetic one?
Always tak de wrong train lo
Damn damn angry xia
Hai
But lucky still gt 2 sales man
Hai
Yea yea
Tml off day
Weee
So happi
But also sad xia
Now my money is so limited
Cannnot go shop shop le
Hai
Is the start of savin money le
Shall try not to eat to save money
His birthday comin le lo
So money needed
So tml off day
I shall go to sell ice cream to earn extra ba
And if sat nv work
Den i go factory work
Haha
To get the $$$ ready for his birthday
Must jia jia you to save and earn money
Wanna mak him de most happiest birthday boiboi
Hehe
Won afraid to rite all my sadness and secret here
Cos he dunno my blog
Wahaha
Cos i noe if he noe i don't want eat and go and save money
Just cos of his birthday
He shall won want de
So cannot let him noe man
Hehe
Nite everybody
Goin to meet him at lala land le
Keke
A guy dat come to my life is enough to break us apart le
Pls dun come de another one
Go for other gal den
I am not de right gal fer anybody
Even frien onli
Can also break us apart
Cos i dun wan him to lose confidence
And i also dunno hw to mak him confident again
And i noe eu guys can let go of me easier den him
And lack of me as one of yr girl friend
Is not different
Cos yr love for me is just temporary
Not as deep as his love towards me

2008-02-27T09:44:00.002+08:00

What is Love?
When ppl said they love euu, do they realli does?
Sometimes i does even met wit ppl
Who does not noe me at all
See me at all
And they said they love me
Wanna me be their Gf
Do u find it funny?
Even buyin somethin
U need to see hw it look like
But finding gf
Don't u need to noe hw yr future gf look like?
Lol
I just could not ppl can fall in love in such a short period
Guys always said they will love dat gal forever
But when de gal reject them
They find a new one veri soon
Or when de gal hab not become their gf
They will treat them as treasure
But once they become their gf
They will soon become their grass
I am wonderin
Whether there is any everlastin love
Dat both couple can treasure each other?
Love is like a maze
Is hard to noe wad it is abt?
Different ppl has different perception towards it
Maybe findin someone who has the same perception as euu
Is de one u lookin fer ba ~

2008-02-27T02:05:00.002+08:00

Wha
Throat is gettin more and more pain
Due to mui greediness lo
Go eat KFC
Somemore still eat chilli lei
Haha
He said i am like a babe
Dunno hw to tak gd care of muiself de
Still say i greedy lo
He also ma
Fan tong o
Kekes~
Wha
So pain
Hope tml my voice will be still there man
Tml workin again xia
Hai yo
If nv work
Den maybe can join them to Howard's birthday
Though there is mani ppl there
And mani of them i dunno
But i noe i won be left around
As long as euu are there
But nvm den
Shall resign to fate
Go for my work xia
Businesswoman yea ~
Lol
Fan Fan Fan
Dunno wad should i get for yr birthday present
Today go walk alone and find tis and tat
Although gt ideas
But still cannot decide on which to purchase
Hai yo
But anyway today lunch wit huimin and xiao rui
Happi man
So long nv see huimin le
Somemore still gt xiao rui de acc to my work end
Hehe
Still gt 2 sales yea
Hope my pay will come soon man
And hope i can earn more more for the IT show
Lol
Alson .....
I start missin euu
Lols
Think of ya mak me wanna laugh at yr tupi acts
As for the eddy
Go and die la
Always argue wit me
Dun come dun come lo
Arghhh
Better dun let me see ya at the IT show huh
Hehe
But somehw miss the day we all drink at tat kopitam
And i am bein recognised out the other day
Lol~
Love IT show
Cos there is my belongin
And i noe Alson won scold me
Heez
If he does, den i dun wan friend him le
Lol
WEeeee ~~~~~~
Hope my throat can recover soon
And more $$$ come in to me
More sales more commission more $$$
Wahaha
I am gettin greedy =x
Cos my $$$ realli little le
Already spent so much b4 i get the pay
Should be careful in money
Should not anyhw spend le
Must think wisely
Hehe
Dunno when can i learn to save money ne?

Th3Gal (misses)

2008-02-24T23:06:00.003+08:00

Hai
I fallin sick again ~
Now sore throat and fever
Somemore mood has been veri low
Although tis few days i am happi wit ppl acc me at home
But behind dat smile
Her heart is bleedin
And realli beri sad
Even i cried
I dun wan let euu noe
Ytd went to yr hse
So happi cos i gt 2 sales
But euu treat me coldly
Cos euu noe i am goin out wit him today
Euu speak to dat gal even more to ya speak to me
I thought when we r onli two together
Euu will talk to me
But u does not
I realli feel like cryin out le
But to prevent me from cryin in front of ya
I told euu i am goin home
But while i am on my way walkin home
My tears began to drip down
Hai
I realli feel like cryin loud
It realli hurt me when euu treat me so coldly
Hai
So cos of euu
I stayed at home and nv go anywhere
And ya went to yr friend's birthday celebration
Although i am realli bored at home
And ya also gt ask me Go
But i will feel uncomfortable too
Sry to be such a spoiler
Hai
Thought after tis
Our misunderstandin will be cleared
But today i am sad again
I wanted to plan yr birthday wit eu
But u said u might go to work or wad
Realli feel hurt
I noe u dun mean it
COs is ya 1st time
Ya dunno how to react
I realli dunno how
Y our relationship like become worse and worse?
Just cos one more person get into my life?
U wan me not to meet up wit him
And also ask me to say i gt someone in mind le
But he also nv say he like me
I am just a gd friend to him
Hai
I realli dunno hw
Y things will become like dat?
Thought if we r not bf and gf
Tis type of things won happen
But it still happen
PLS
Hold me tight and dun let it get worse
Hai
Sry to someone too
I lie to euu
But i hab no choice

2008-02-22T11:47:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl out there
Tell euu wad
KENZO is such a lousy brand
But sadly i work under it now
Yea...
I tryin my best to leave tis Fuckin job
Poor management i can said
And those manager and boss there are wierdo
Havin a big mouth who is so free
And wanna find someone to scold
Sadly i am one of the victims bein scolded
19 Feb
I work at centrepoint
There is realli no customers
Even there is customers
They go for the prada there de counter
As there is more choices
So i got zero sale tat day
And still get scoldin by tat bitch
Ask me go find out other compeitors de sales
I told her i left centrepoint le
Den she talk back
Said zero sale, i stil leave like dat
Realli mak me damn du lan la
Hey
zero sale mean dun need go home le meh?
Still accuse me izzit i nv gif customers sampling?
Den i said gt but no customers, i also no choice ma
Den keep wanna me go check other competitors sales
Den i told her check also no use ma
Den she said at least i can go home do reflection
F her la
Is our product lousy la
Den hack her xia
I told her i reach home le
If she wan, den i tml go check lor
Den mornin i report to her de zero sales again
And she ask me gocheck other competitors de sales
Which mak me so ps la
Ppl thinkin i am someone who go check out sales de
Den dun wan gif me
FUCK FUCK FUCK

And tis mornin
I am feelin so unwell
So i msg her, told her i not comin
And i found my replacement
Den she said she on leave
Ask me call big boss
So i msg big boss
Den tat bitch call back and scold
Did'nt i said call not sms
Hw i noe will be so serious or wad?
Fuck her la
From today onwards
KENZO is a company i realli hate
If one day i hab de chance to be successful
I wan kenzo tis brand to disappear in tis world
I realli hate workin here
I bet i am not de onli one who hate workin for kenzo
As almost all part timer quittin le
Fuck brand, fuck ppl, fuck management, fuck job
LAVONNE - I HATE EUU TO CORE
U tis bitch, dun gif me a chance to see euu again
I will mak yr life suffer

2008-02-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

Is been a while since i last blog le
currently de me is workin for kenzo
A job dat is so so sian de
Hai
As for today
I am fallin sick
And also sad and disappointed
The reason of why i dun wan to get into relationship
Cos i am not ready to commit my time to my partner
Like whenever i am free
I gt to meet Him
If like dat
I cannot even breathe man
I am afraid of tat le
And now even we r not bf and gf
I could not hab a peaceful day at home
yr mum called to ask me go yr hse
No matter hw i reject
She keep on askin
I feel so helpless xia
I am realli sick
But ya mum said i lie
Yea
I am forgetful dat i did ask u told ya mum i am not sick
Is so sad when i heard wad ya mum said
I am actualli cryin over de phone
But still act tough in front of euu
Even afternoon i also cried
Cos i am stress dat should i go yr hse or not
Cos i am realli tired and not feelin well
But afraid ya mum unhappy
Is been tough to pluck up my courage to tell euu
I not Goin
and u said huh...
Thought u would rather ask me stay at home and rest den go yr hse
U huh cos u could not get to see me
U mak me feel dat u dun reali care abt me
My health is not dat important den u could not see me
I am wonderin y am i de one who go and find euu
Thought there is always in and out
hai
I can see yr efforts become lessen and lessen
All i can said is
I am gettin more and more hurt and disappointment
And i am wonderin am i dat important 2 euu?

2008-01-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

Conflicts in love and hate

To or not to ~

It been 7 days i nv blog le
So i should summarize today
Lots of things happened
Finally he is out
But hab to go to report on 28 jan again
Another day to worry and everything will be over
And i also quit my job
Farewell to Denise the wine shop
Is been 5 months i was workin there
So unbearable
But truth hidden inside the heart
THings that seems on the surface
Hab meanin underneath it
But let the bygones be bygones
I shall enjoy the days without workin

O ya
Ytd halfway ponten sch
And we went shoppin at bugis
Fellows involved
Me, huining, cheryl, ben and lister
Wha
The 2 guys tat out wit us
Was de 2 i hab conflicts wit b4
But after ytd
My impression change towards them
THEY ARE GREAT PERSON
Of cos so do huining and aizhi
Hehe
Love them lots

Was shocked tat he is behind me
And asked me to go play pool
So i Go
Even though is so wierd
I am the onli gal out of 4 guys
But hard to reject

Maybe things get better
But i still wanna remain as single
Dun i just dun wanna get into a relationship
I noe i am not suitable for one
So i shall let it go
Maybe i decided
Or maybe no..?
Hai
Dun talk abt it le
So confusin

Wooo
I enjoyed a lot ytd
Haha
Me and huining keep on tryin on bikini
Haha
Make me so tempting of buyin one soon
Hehe
I should buy one by this week
And go sentosa on tis sun
Hehe
Wit my sunglasses
Gt to get a new one too
Cos dun realli like the sunglasses i bought
Wow
Gonna spend again

Hah
Den we shop around
Play arcade 2gether
Drink tea
Try on clothin
And ....

Fun fun fun
is been long time i hab not enjoyed myself so much le
But i noe more of tis days will be comin soon
Cos holiday is comin
And i am single now
Shall treasure friendship
Cos onli wit friends around
Den my life will be wit colours
And not lost my ways
And find all my friends gone
When someone is gone in my life

Gals

....

LET GO OUT TOGETHER ~

2008-01-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

B4 i start bloggin
I wan to apologise to someone 1st
I am sorry !!!
I noe today i should not show attitude
Cos i was feelin realli sucks inside
So decide to blog
But suddenly ya tap on me
I thought is who xia
Sorry for not able to control myself
Hope u can understand

Today after sch
Went to repair my phone
Why so much suay stuffs happen to me de
Things inside will be gone again
Again sentimental msg gonna missin
Sick and tired to start anew again

I called but cannot get through
Maybe it means serious business now le ba
Was listenin to cha yi dian now
Tis is the song which u ask me to listen
And tis song make me recall of ya shed yr tears cos of me
When i am abt to leave eu
U asked me to stay stay stay
Hai
I hardly say i miss someone de
But dunno why i will start to say tis kind of words le
Even to gals, i also can said tat le
Last time even my bf and my love
I won said i miss them de
But now i start sayin i miss my love, my friends
Now i realli miss ya
MISS tis word is realli hard to say out
When i said it out
It mean i realli mean it
Hai
Actualli i could not expect y will i meet wit someone again?
I told myself i dun wanna get into relationship anymore le
But dunno y i am so worried and concern abt u
When u r nobody to me
Maybe bein boiboi and galgal
Realli mak us fall in love in each other?
Hai
We both hab our reason not to get into relationship
But even u r not my bf
I will still concern and care abt u de
Cos i remember when i am down
U r the one who mak me happy
Mak me feel i am not alone
And even promise to mak me happy everyday
And will treat me as yr gf
So we from fake bf and fake gf
Become boiboi galgal le
And the way we noe each other also beri de wierd
At 1st just noe for fun
But ended up
Contact for 1 month plus le
And i believe it will still go on de
No matter hw long ya go in
I will not forget eu de
none of ppl is passerbys of my life
They are all precious to me

I noe love is hurt
So i won think of gettin into relationship or wad
But all i wan now
Is u dun need to go in
Or at least come out fast
Den we shall let the nature tak it course ba
Continue our story of boiboi and galgal
Till each of us meet the person we love?
Hais
Wad u r doin now ne?
~~~~~~~

Dun wan to shed tears for sadness but for happiness
It will onli happen when u come out soon
I wan my gd nite msg
Th3Gal

2008-01-14T13:26:00.000+08:00

All i noe is tat he is reportin today
At 3pm
He said tat if i could not get through him at night
Mean ...
Hai
I can't wait till night
Realli anxious
Hai
Feel like runnin away
But how?
Hai
He asked me not to worry
But how?
Dun wan ytd night is the last day we met
Dun wan ytd to be the last day we talk on phone
Dun wan ytd to be the last time u gif me a surprise
I still wan to master the pool
Be yr disciple
And win u by my own hands de lei
Hope nth happen ba ~

2008-01-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

Everything over yea ~
Good for Him
I rather leave him 1st
Rather than making him feel miserable
I know he will she bu de me if he go in
So might as well mak him hate me ba
So he won be so miserable
Less one person to she bu de
Indeed we become beri ... le
My attitude change towards him
Actualli i feel like seein wad u written in the notebook de
But better not ba
Dun wan change my mind le
Make u feel tat i am bad now
Leave u 1st ba
Den scarly the day u come out
See me wit other guy
I cannot hundred percent confirm the few years u not wit me
I will wait for u
And won meet anyone i like
Cos i am in no position to do tat
And the time is so short
Is too little time for me to test my feelin towards u

Plus we r people from diff world
We are not compatible at all
So wad maybe we like each other?
We won last in the end too de
Dun wanna hab any failure de relationship anymore
And now by leavin u
I can see hw important am i
You won use millions of reasons to mak me stay
U onli wan me to leave
I know the reason behind
U just dun wan me to feel hurt
But i just could not understand
I noe u care a lot for me
But why not try to show it through actions?
U said u dunno hw
But u does not even try
Hai
No point sayin anymore
Decision is made
I shall perservere on
Dun change it
Just hope tat u will get light sentence
Maybe one day ya will learn hw to care for ppl ba
I know ya should hate me now ba
But hate me is better than both of us gettin hurt
One has to xi sheng for the relationship to end
Everything need 2 hands to clap
So i shall be the one who clap 1st
Maybe u won noe wad am i thinkin?
Just thinkin since i wan to leave u
Den leave lor
But hai
I won regret for wad i hab done for u
Cos .........

Story ended....

2008-01-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

Sch is realli damn borin de

Wonderin wad will be the result ne

Tis pic can describe hw i feel now

Worried?

Troubled?

Confused?

Disappointed?

They are all hidden

Not to let others see

Dun wan others to see my facial expresion

Dun wan tell others hw i feel too

Cos i am in dilemma too

Dunno hw to explain my feelin

Dun wan de world of black and white

Wanna colours to my life

2008-01-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

Thanks fer someone de advice
Ask me not to think and worry too much
Taught me not to be so silly
Hai
Maybe just like wad others said
I get cheated easily
Cos i tend to believe in ppl
Things i nv think b4
Ppl asked me why should i worry so much for him
When he does not even care?
And i also not important person to him ma
Ya lo
Yes
I am not a important person to him
I am just nothin
If he treat me as someone important
Why don't he heed my advice?

Hai
He is goin to report tml le
Hope for the better ba
Maybe wad someone said is right
I should treat him as a normal friend
Not cos something happen to him
Den show so much concern or wadever

I realli wonderin hw important am i to u
Words shown
But actions not shown
Nth is as powerful as actions,rite?
If u realli care for me
And i realli so important 2 u
Why ya seldom call me ne?
Even ya wanna go in le
Ya nv ask to go out wit me
I think there is no such reason as shy ba
Is just tat i am not important
I hab so much de heart matters to tell euu
Sometimes i realli get pissed off
Hate the way being treated
Like i am nobody
I realli dunno hw to express myself now
I onli left wit disappointment, sadness towards u
Even i am realli disappointed on tat day i went to yr didi's hse
I dun wanna tell euu
And u said u acc me but dunno wad to say
Hai
Not tat i am calculative
I just feel like i am nobody
When i step into tat hse
U walk straight inside de room
And a stranger like me
Where should i go?
I onli can stand there still
Is like so...
Okie
Den next yr friend ask me go find u
Okay
I go
And after tat i was left alone in the kitchen
Nth to do
And a while ltr in the room
While everybody is eatin
U as someone who care the most abt me
Does not even ask whether i wanna eat ma
Even though i won eat
But is jus a normal way of concern
And next ya suddenly need to go out
So i went off too
U think i nv heard u shoutin
Is just tat i am too angry to ans u
My feelin is always being neglected
And okay
Ytd ne?
We was chattin on the phone
But halfway ya suddenly chat wit yr friend
Hey
If i am realli important
Tat is not the way ya should response
Hai
Dunno wanna say le
Shall just be normal
Care so much for wad
I learnt le
I will onli start to care back
If ya show me actions
I noe ya forever won see my blog de
As u dun even hab tis link
And if u r concern abt me
Won't ya feel curious when u noe i hab a blog?
HAI
Realli feel silly when thinkin back
Y should i cry so much?
Care so much?
Worry so much?
For someone i noe for 1 month plus
Plus not tat close
And someone does not tak u importantly
Thanks fer tat somebody to wake me up
Will go back to the actual me soon de

Sadness beyond control

2008-01-09T11:32:00.000+08:00

8 JAN 2008
Today nv go sch and went out to meet my love
At 1st, we r goin to town and drink de
But last min change
So go lot 1 onli
Saw xin yan there
She is still like the past
As cheerful
Was wonderin wad can we do lei
So i thought of buyin absolute vodka
But damn it de lor
So ex
70 plus
How can be...
So decide not to drink le
Drink wang zai milk better
Wit the wang zai xiao bun

After buyin our stuff
We planned to go to the park to hab our "picnic"
But Laughs
Lazy to walk so just sit anywhere
Laughs
Hehe
Dunno why me and my love become so calculative
Onli eat 2 of her xiao bun
Also must return back
O ya
She still owe me 85 cents
Lol
I am wonderin if we talk like dat and let other ppl overheard
They will think tat we r so ...
Onli we two understand each other
Haha

Opps
Den while walkin around lot 1
Suddenly feel like gifin him surprise b4 he go in
So went to more den words
Find things for him
So i bought him
A pencil case - to rite letters for me
Notebook - to rite his sadness and happiness inside
Ashtray - noe he gt smoke but hope one day he dun need to use it
6 piece of cards - note note
Magic pen - hehe... to rite the secret notes
Snow spray
Boxes
AND TIBITS
Some is wad i like de
Wanna him to eat full full le den go in
So after tat, we took cab down his didi's hse
And my love is so funny
I onli told her tat his didi's hse there gt song ka
Den she go and told the driver
We wanna go song ka
Laughs ~
And is so funny lo
The driver also shocked cos of her
And she can laugh till sprain her toes
But the time we reach there
We saw a unknown person up there
Thought the person is him
But is someone i dunno
And i still wave to him
Lols

So quickly rush to the nearby table
Write down notes inside the notebook and cards wit the magic pen
And rush to his didi's hse and put it outside the hse
At first we wanna spray the snow spray askin him to tak care
But realise is quite loud
So we run to the staircase and spray there
Last min i changed to spray be happy
but so saddenin
Onli spray till be
Den no more left le
So lousy de
So we quickly retreat and call him
He toot toot de
Thought i asked to come out and meet me
Den keep put down the phone
And call back
His mind is thinkin where am i
And nv realise tat wad i spray and the items i put outside

I just hope he is happy can le
Dun wanna him to cry
Hai
Happy tat he is touched
And surprised
But all is i did is just askin for a happy u
Wan u to be realli happy b4 goin inside
Realli scare the police will torture u
Hai
Hope u will be happy inside too

2008-01-08T13:51:00.000+08:00

Today nv go for sch
Is been 2 days i hab not slp
But still cannot get to sleep
Feel like drinking
Maybe ltr goin to UE square had a bottle of moscato ba

We msg each other in the mornin
He said his mother cried
Hai
He sure feelin beri sad now de
But i could do nothin
Felt so useless
Realli could not believe it is a reality
Nonono
Is another wierd dream i gt
Hw could be so zun de?
Pls la
Shirley
Stop dreamin
Wake up la
There is nth happenin
U r just imagine too much again
Now no doramon, no vampire to let u dream about
So u mak tis pathetic dream
Stop dreamin
U could nv go back to the sad sad u de
U r a happy person now
Think is cos i hab not been slpin
So keep dreamin abt tis wierd things
Should get a real sleep
And wake up
Ask ppl to slap me
Den i will realise tat i am thinkin too much
All the msg also fake de
Is yr imagination
Smile always
AND STOP DREAMIN

2008-01-08T05:18:00.000+08:00

A day without gd nite msg
It means something is wrong
Ytd is the first day of sch
Went to sch
I was so damn tired
Den after tat went to work
Happy to noe vincent is not around
Onli me and Gary
At abt 8 plus
Went to buy some foods for myself and Gary
And come back use my laptop
He is gd to allow me to use my laptop there
While eatin and using my laptop
He called
I was quite happy to see him calling
But to my surprise
He said he gt bad news for me
Ask me not to be sad
Which is He get into trouble again
And need to go back
And need to go back
Means i goin to lose him
No gd nite msg every nite le
No one there carin fer me le
Is been hard to clear our misunderstandin
And get back to our usual self
But now i can't believe he will be gone again
I was talkin to him on the phone
Den Gary called me to come back
Said he need to go and tak stocks from Far East
At first is he asked me to go de
Think he noe i am feelin sad
So he off he went

By the time i called back
He ran out le
I told him not to do tat
But he nv listen
Hai
He won listen to me de
I realli could not tak control myself
And burst out into tears through the phone
And maybe it is the 1st time i cried in front of ppl
I usualli can hold it back
Or run to the toilet and cried
Den come back de
But now i could not stop it
I just keep on crying
So Gary asked me to go home
And ask me to advice him to go home
So i quickly rushed home
Prepared myself and tak cab down to his didi's hse
I dunno why when i get to see him
I dare not say anythin
And dun dare to show him the powerpoint i did
hai
Is also disappointin
Maybe i should not come
Feel some sort of extra
There is nth to talk abt
And he like does not realli care abt my exist?
Or he being shy again?
To me
I will nv accept ppl being shy
I onli noe if tat someone is important to eu
Eu should treat her differently from others
I hate ppl to say sorry to me
Cos i dun like to see the mistakes ppl done
I asked for perfect
Not mistakes

At abt 1 plus
He and his friend is goin to meet wad big person la
So we went off 2gether
I was the 1st to walk out
Without sayin gdbye
Cos anger and disappointment is there
I was havin fever and my head is giddy
But all i think is tryin my best to ask eu to go back home
But the moment i step into yr didi's hse
I noe it is impossible
I can heard him shoutin many times
" Gal Gal "
But i don't want to care abt him
But heart still soften
So turn back
And he said gdbye to me
In my life
I nv been neglected by guys
Ytd somehw i feel neglected
And somehw feel why should i get myself into tis shoes
Offered to be neglected?

I have been having shi mian for quite a long time
And again
Ytd i could not get to slp
Hai
Head is realli pain
Think i goin to break down soon ba

I nv expect it comes so fast
The reason u just told me
Realli happen now
U said u dun wan fall for me
Cos u r afraid tat u need to go back again
And dun wan mak me hurt
Wan me to be happy every single day
And now in just a day
It happened !~
Can u tell me wad should i do?
Even though both of us clearly noe tat we won be 2gether
Cos i dun wanna get into relationship again
But u still left a important place in my heart
U r the one who accompany me through the rainy days
And u said u will be there for me
In 8 months times
We goin for night cyclin
Onli u and me
But now, how?
U run away !~
Dun wanna see u goes back again
REALLI DUN WAN
Can?
I said le
I hate being let go
I dun wan ppl to be passerby of my life
U said u will come back and find me when u r out
No way
I wan yr acc now
Dun wan u to go in
I noe u r stress and sad
It has been two yrs
Nv celebrate chinese new yr wit yr family
Now u need to go back again
I said i can feel my 2008
Is a bad yr for me
And is really true
Jan 6 and 7
I cried
When will i cry again ne?
Jan 7
7 7 7
My favourite day and number
Is a tough day
A beri tough day
I hate to see ppl leavin me one by one
Especially eu
We still hab to compete
Who will fall in love 1st de ba
U said is a promise u mak to yrself
Tat u want to mak me happy everyday
YES
U DID IT
With u around
I no longer think abt the sad things
Tat me and him break off le
And i indeed smile everyday
Especially when u msg me
Concern abt me
Chat wit me on phone even though u r damn tired
BUT NOW
If u r gone
I will just return back to my usual self
Sad everyday
Cos of u and him
Ai hai tao tao
Why i always had tis kind of fate
Important ppl r always taken away from me
I dun wan u to go back again
Realli dun wan
U said u will try not to fight again de
Try not to smoke
But den
B4 u ever try
It happened le
Can't god gif him a chance to try?
He nv even beat ppl
But why so suan need to go in?
Heart is havin conflicts
Realli afraid i recieve a call again
Tat he was caught
Pls dun
I dun wan to listen to tat call
I am so afraid
I noe he will get caught tis few days
Soon and later
How?how?how?
I wan the gd nite msg from euu euu euu
U still hab not finish sendin me
There is at least 26 more to go
Mean at least 26 days to go
U said u wan to mak me happy everyday de
Dun break yr promise,can?
I realli hope u r safe and sound
Again i am truly hurt
I need eu
I realli do ~
Maybe in both our heart
We have already fall in love le
But just controllin
U said b4
U like me a bit le
So now u need to control
So dun wan send me msg concernin me
But now we r past to our usual self
U start to send msg to me
Askin where is gal gal ne?
Boiboi
I realli dun wan to lose u
I remember i send u de song
WHERE R U...
Both our friendster put the same song
Cos is our song,rite?
I still remember the christmas eve and new year eve
U and my love is the 1st person i get to see in my 1st day of 2008
The shyness u show out
Hidin inside the room
Enjoyin air con
Show me and m love the magic show yr friend did
Is so funny
And u disturb me back when i was playin CS
Moreover me and my love is sittin on the lorry
And u r upstairs
Xian hai us to talk
And disturb ppl
And when we meet wit danger
U r there to help us
Tellin me u r realli angry to see me givin de money
And u nearly could not control yrself
Forgt abt the taggin
Wanna to run out of the hse
But why?
U r the one i saw in my 1st day of 2008
Mean u should be the one acc me throughout 2008 de
The start of the yr of me and u
Can i reverse back the time?
U told me u beri sad when u heard galgal cryin
I noe u also dun wan leave us de
But why?
Is not our choice to decide...
Realli miss those days we hab
Typin our msg in the PM
The msg we send 2 each other
AND MORE MORE MORE
Without u, i am just nothin
I hab nv been so happy b4 after leavin my joy of place, my sec sch
U r the one who bring laughter to me
Keep it goin,pls
I am gettin to hate police more and more
Dun tak boiboi away from me
It will hurt everyone
Boiboi galgal must msg each other everyday de
I wanna celebrate yr birthday wit u
U said u nv celebrate b4 de
Why things change so fast de....
Where r u now?
Even ytd i am disappointed and angry
And keep thinkin tat i dun wan care abt u anymore
But i just cannot do it
I seldom msg guy de
U r my seldom
U mak me change to someone i dunno
Nv think i can do so much
Even more den my exs
Even though u does not meet my criteria to be my bf
Yr height yr size and ...
But yr being mak me dun mind all these
Boiboi
U gt to be strong
If u realli go in again
Let get contact wen u r out
Realli hope u can come out fast
Can u manage to celebrate the next christmas and new yr eve wit me?
I somehw miss u now ~

2008-01-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today nth realli much happen
Wake up at abt 12 plus
Den find my own things to do
Den go for work le

TodaY workin was damn slack
Nth to do
Gary keep askin me to go and sleep
ROFL
So i went to the sofa there
Haha
A msg come when i almost fall asleep
Hehe
Dun wan say out is who =P

So slack
Till gary let me off at 10pm
But my pay is till 11pm
So gd
Happy
Den boardin 190
I saw my long lost friend
Pei shan
So we chat happily
She said Guess and Mango is habin offers
So i shall go down tml and tak a look
Hope i can find my dream purse
Hehe

Tml might be goin sentosa
Yea yea yea
Is my wish to go sentosa everyday
But everytime when i planned to go sentosa
We ended up nv go

Someone is realli sad today
I realli feel quite guilty abt it
Dunno hw to mak her cheer up
I am so afraid to see her sad
And also heart pain to see tat
Hais..
Hope tml she will be damn happi
I also scared i will see her cry tml
Hais...

2008-01-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

Woooo....
Today went to sell ice cream
Sales was damn bad
Hai
O
yup
Shall thanks boss fer helpin me buy ^^
He so gd

And on my way home
I met Jurrel
And acc hIm wait fer bus
Haha
so long nv meet hIm le
Wooo
Shall stop here
Hehe

2008-01-03T13:10:00.000+08:00

Went to shop ytd wit my love

Wad i bought?

$10 shirt and $5 necklace

Love tis bag a lot, cost me $22, get it now if u like ^^

Giovanna slipper, $19.90

Giovanna again, $23.90

Haha

If anyone interested in the items i bought

U can ask me where izzit ^^

Ytd was so tired

So nv blog

After shoppin

I went to work

Ytd gt to clean off all the white spray

So mA fan

Haha

Got caught !!!

Some1 discovered i nv do housework at home again

Hais...

But i noe hw to sweep the floor lo

Learnt from tech wah de aunties de

Dunno why everywhere i go for work

Which imply housework

Ppl will say i dunno hw to do

I realli act like i noe lo

Not like those da xiao jie

Even dirty cloth also dun dare to take

Hai

Actin failed

But nvm

Practise make prefect

Like now

I can wash the glass faster den last time

Opps

Ytd durin work

I accidently fall asleep at the sofa

So comfortable lo

Till Gary shouted wei

Den i wake up

At first onli say say i wanna slp

But i realli fall asleep

Haha

Too tired le

Plus i am feelin so cold

Maybe due to i fallin sick le

Think i goin to hab fever soon le

Hais ~

Dunno should i go sell ice cream ltr ne?

I dun wan sell on my own lei

Veri borin and sian

C 1st ba

Noe tat xian liang will call me

Surely is he need help le

So i will try my best to go when i am free ba

Money is not a problem

Just wanna help him

He is realli a beri nice boss

And is a promise to myself

Whenever he need help

I will do my best to help de

Though he dunno my promise

And dunno hw important he meant to me

But i realli appreciate him for bein so nice

Kindness shall be repay ^^

Now i get to noe wad goin wrong btw me and him
Misunderstandin is meant to be solved
Hope we will get better
Though i dun wanna get into a relationship
But he is one of the important person in my heart
I noe if i lose him
I will be very sad
Although maybe we are not tat close
But i dunno why
I will tear bcos of u
Cannot get to slp cos of u
Maybe i am used to the days wit him around
I onli noe tat onli wit him
I will be happy
Yr character is realli wad i am lookin for
Hmmm
Thanks for bein there for me
U r my hope of life

As for my love
I think i get her into trouble
Cos i go and talk to chee fu
As i realli feel hurt and sad to see her so tired
I wan her to be happi
Is her 1st relationship
Why can't let her be the most happiest gal in tis world?
I noe her stead love her lots
Care her lots
But love her does not mean to meet her everyday ma
I dun wan to see her breakdown
See her so tired
And lost her radience
Somehw i feel
Even she gt him
She nv get happier
But more troubled
Hope to see the brightness in her again
No matter wad
I will be there for u de
Blood ties is always the closest
We r jus like sisters
And we will nv separate
And i will remember our promise
When we grow up
We must buy flat, car and live 2gether
Laughs

2008-01-02T12:55:00.000+08:00

Again
I wan to go joggin...
But it rain again'
I realli wonder y everytime so zun de
Whenever i wanna go joggin
It will rain

But
I won let the rainy day spoil my days
Cos i am a stubborn gal
The more u dun let me hab my joggin
The more i wan to jog
So i continue wit my plan
It was my first joggin under the rain
The park which is always gather wit mani ppl
Is the first time so quiet
And there is onli me walkin and joggin under the rain

In less than 15 min
I am all wet
But somehw i enjoy the moment
The peacefulness, the beauty of the park
While walkin and walkin
My head begin to ache
Till now it still achin
Maybe i am under the rain for too long le

Laughs
I think i gettin sick again le
Sure get scoldin from parents if i fall sick again
But hw could u expect a stubborn gal admit to her fate ne?
Wo cai bu hui xiang ming yun di tou de

Happy tat later i gt to see my love again
And after meetin her
I will go for my work
Hope i won fall sick ba
Laughs
And also hope my head can stop achin now

Without anyone by my side
I realli dunno hw to tak care of myself again
Last time i am always told wad to do and wad not to do
But now ....
Even though last time i seldom listen to yr care and advice
But now somehow i miss the days i am bein care and concern
And ppl toldin me off from tis and tat
Now my life realli changes
Maybe i tak life for granted too much le
When there is ppl there carin for me
I does not care
Always wan to do the way i am
But now i realli misses.....

2008-01-01T12:10:00.000+08:00

Zhi Lian Time ^^

LAO PO PO !!!

Hai, my love always dun wanna tak wit me

Hehe, single is still the b3st !!!

Tis photo is taken at J3
When me and my love habin our k lunck
Hehe
Ppl outside is thinkin i crazy ba?
BUT I DUN CARE
Cos i am used to bein said i am CRAZY

Life is for us to enjoy !!!
Indeed after i left u
I am much more happy

2008-01-01T04:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE ~
Happy tat my new year eve is spent wit my cousin
Hehe
Just feel comfortable wit her around
Woooo...........
Actualli goin to meet kor and his grp of 10 friends to city hall
To count down de
And also meet alvin, francis they all at orchard de
But shall miss it to spend the day wit 2 important person
Laughs ~
I spent my new yr eve by playin CS
Which makes me so angry
Cos from a high rank become the last
Hate being the last
Dunno why nowaday
Anything i play also get the last
Hais ~
LADY LUCK PLS COME BACK TO ME
I realli need euuuuu..............

Somehw gt a bad feelin
Tat my yr of 2008
Will hab lot of challenges for me
And is sure hard de
Like for the first day of 2008
After 12am...
Me and my cousin was on our way to my hse
I was wavin to him goodbye
And a wierd guy runnin towards us
Thought he is just passin by
But den he is COMIN after us for money
OH my
Realli scare the freak out of me...
Me and my cousin was so shocked and stunned
Dunno wad to do
Cos heard mama say
When someone ask ya for money
Dun gif it to Him
Cos once u tak money out
He will snatch everything u hab

So to prevent him doin tis
Wit a win win situation
Me and my cousin walk to a more openin area
But still in dilemma and scared
And we thought by walkin away
He will gif up ba
But he run to us again
Is damn scary
So i dig into my cousin's bag to dig out 2 dollars for him
Also meanwhile thinkin should i gif him more?
Cos he is like so ke lian
As he onli wan a 2 dollar
And said if we dun believe him
We can follow him to buy foods
Yes..
2$ may mean a little to us
But is better not to tak risk
As 2$ might be = lose everything

I bless for him
Hopin tat 2$ i gif him can be a gd start for him
Gif him energy for first day of new yr
Hope he can find a job soon...
O
Hw tupi am i...
I should ask him whether he need a job ma
Den intro him
Hai~
Forget...
But realli quite scared at tat moment
Onli hope there is someone there helpin us
Just like fairy books
Habin a prince to rescue the princess
Haha
YEa yea
I am dreamin again

Haha...
Tad remind me of eddy's reminder
He always ask me to be careful at night
Beware of wolves
But everytime i will told him bravely tat
I den dun scare at all
Sure beat them de lor
But when even for a guy comin after for money
I cannot do anythin
Dun even dare to punch him
Hai ~
Must train on my courage le
More practise will be perfect
But no more experience on meetin any pervert or money chaser....

Yawn ~
I am so sleepy now
TIRED
GOOD NITE EVERYONE

2007-12-31T00:28:00.000+08:00

I am so glad tat she nv left me alone
Make me nv regret of doin things for her
But even she went out wit him tml
I won blame her
I just wan her to be happi
Dun wan her cos of me
Quarrel wit him or even break
I am afraid to see her tears
I rather myself sad

I admit may be i am weak ba
Cos of a small matter
Can feel sad
But i just dun wan to be the extra of u 2
I dun wan to be the troublemaker
I wan to learn to grow up
And noe hw to do things for others witout lettin tat person noe

Today also nearly lose him
Tell him let dun be boi boi and gal gal le
He said he will respect my decision
Realli afraid he respect it lo
Hai
At first tears a bit onli
But after saw wad he wrote
Cannot stop crying
Onli till he said stay ^^
Somehw feel tat after i said dun be boi boi and gal gal anymore
He treat me not so close le
Nv call me gal gal le
Hai ~
Hope we get better like last time ba
Realli cherish eu
Hope fer the better...
Wonderin what u mean..
When u asked wad if one day i found someone i like
Will i leave u?
Izzit u goin to leave me le?
Hai~

2007-12-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

I dunno why..
Cos of a small matter
My tears keep comin down
Suddenly feel beri lonely
And beri de wad
Like i keep snatchin my close one from somebody
It actualli hurts
He ask me to let her off early
Dunno why i feel so pain
Yes...
She is the onli one i hab now
I thought she can count down wit me
But feel like someone is blamin me for keep snatchin her away
Said they hab not met for 4 days
Wanna me let her go early...

Yes...
Last time
May be she belonged to me
But now she does not
Tis is the first time i cried for her
Maybe i shall be more reasonable
Go out wit my friends tml
And let her be wit him
Out of a sudden
I realli feel so lonely
No one besides me anymore

It goes back to the day i lost u
Lost u forever
Now cos wanna to go out wit her
I was told by him
Dun go crowded de areas
And let her off early
She is my close one
I know her from the day she born
Cannot be compared to u?
Who noe her for weeks?

May be it just a few words..
But i feel hurt....
Realli hurt...
And who can i tell ne?
Definitely not her

As for him ne?
He is not there for me le...

2007-12-30T20:24:00.000+08:00

Sianz Sianz Sianz...
Today stay at home the whole day
Listenin to songs...
At abt 6 plus,
Finally wanna Go joggin de
After being lazy to wake up to go
But the moment i stepped out the hse
Is RAINING
I am wonderin is there any1 so suan like me
Arghh...
Spoil my moods...
Shall go joggin tml ba ^^
Den after tat Go meet my cousin for k box
And go shop shop
I am cravin for hair extension..permed hair...redye hair... coloured lens

Heihei...
But dunno whether wanna do it ne?
Is a risk...
Dun wanna like last time
Ruined my whole look...
But is better to perm wit real hair lei
Or else like so fake lik dat
Shall see hw tml ba...
Now the most important thing is still slimmin down
Awh...
My dream is so near yet so far to me...
Hai...
Jia you~Jia you~

2007-12-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late
Opps...Is 12.10pm
I thought it is still early
And my work start at 1pm
Sure late de
But i shall hurried to get myself prepared
So rush to work...
Today was quite sian
Nth better to do
Also no one msg me de
Nowaday, less and less ppl msg me le

Wow
Today get beaten by Gary
Tat tupi uncle, even gal also beat
I won let it off so easy deHeihei...
Although i noe i sure lose to eu de
But i shall defend myself...
U tis betrayer...
Talk to cold storage the aunties huh...

Woah...Saw The new comin stocks
Absolute vodka, Bomay, GoRdons
Make me curious hw they taste like

This is hw they look like...

Woo

Today shawn was nice

Allow me to go home at 10pm

But marked me at 11pm

2007-12-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

Today went lot 1 wit my love
Hehe
It been so long we hardly go out 2gether
I always enjoy the time wit her
Always feel so comfortable wit her
Opps
Today somehw quarrel wit her
But lucky is not a serious one
Or else i sure will be beri sad de

Hehe
Bought a CD today
YEAH !!!
Actualli today gt work de
But just cos i wanna extend to 7pm or 8pm
Shawn ask me not to come le
SInce today not so busy
Haha
Think if i continue like tat
I sure kanna sack soon
Opps

Since dun need to work
I shall enjoy my day wit my love
HEHE
We went arcade to play
Basketball... dytona...
Haha
Hands was so tirin man
She is gd at basketball lei
While for me T_T
Can said is a sad case ba
Haha
I am always not gd in games wit ball
Laughs ~
After playin, we go the neoprint there sit
And make a lot of funny faces inside
Hehe
Like crazy gals
Still gt a small boi run in
Look at us for abt 3 sec den leave
Dots de lor
Hahas...
Realli enjoyed
After tat,actualli we wanna go JE sing songs de
But realised tat my ezlink no money le
Hai
So we went back to lot 1 again
To eat sushi
Hehe...

Total ratin for today --- 7/10 (my favourite number ^^ )

Woooo..........
My wish is to slim down
When can i fulfill it ne?
And to become a ...
I realli wan...
Hope tat day can come soon