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喜欢对着天空发呆想着你的笑容出现在人海你总是能让我开怀忍耐我的坏只是这一切将烟消云散也许遇见你是个错错在我们身处不同的时空两颗心交会的时候一分钟就足够够我一辈子想念很久我会选择离开微笑告别伤害我知道你心中的那份遗憾当你为她戴上幸福的头盖我含泪祝福你有美的未来想飞到千里外期待一切重来想洗去你对你的所有依赖但谢谢你让我体会了真爱我永远记得你心中的遗憾

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Take mui sadness away

Opps, ytd internet gt problem so nv blog

hmmm...would like to comment on mui tagbox

was realli touched to see mui dearest 2 friends

concernin fer me

thanks veri much

wad happened ytd?

it is a day of mixture of feelings

disappointed?

sad?

happy?(unlikely)

touched?

angry?

haha, i dunno hw to describe anymore

i just realli feel very regretted

regretted of meetin euu

mui 1st time bein left alone at orchard

i am so sorri tat i caused wad happen to euu

but do euu thought of mui feelin

i felt so silly

i should carry on wit mui hatred towards eu

why can't i?

i admit u r de 1 i <3>

de 1 who makes me sad de longest

hurts me de most

make me do things tad i will nv do on others

the one who keep allowin me 2 hab unexpected happenin

can euu stop hurtin me?

just carry on wit yr life

why bother to come and find me?

i am happy without euu

why come back and ruin mui life?

euu hab already abandoned me for 1 yr plus

cos of the presence of another gal

and wad hab euu done to me?

euu brought nth

but onli sadness to mui life

do euu ever being scolded b4?

cos of euu, i was scolded by yr gf's godsis

BITCH!!

a word i nv thought of ppl will use on me

and wad can i do?

i noe nth, euu does not tell me yr gf is unhappy

if i noe tat, i will leave euu

not even wantin 2 be yr god sis

even i get scoldin

do euu noe tat?

even i cried,euu noe?

nobody noe...

i felt tat i am so ...

cried under de rain

haha...

de years of sadness come from euu

lettin me habin probia in relationship

now even worse

ppl who noe me well

should noe tat i am someone who don't like 2 tak initative

love mui face so much

and realli care abt hw ppl look on me

and now i hab 2 tell someone

i am de one who re contact him de

de one who ask him out

and

promise nv contact him again

hahaha

so wierd xia

mak me feel even more a BITCH

a bitch tat keep stealin ppl's bf

which i hab no intention

as i noe de feelin of bf bein tak away by other gal

how will i do de same thing?

come on

dun mak me sad anymore

stop mui probia

euu should noe last time

i should be a gal who trust in relationship

a gal who wan an endin like tong hua gu shi

why ruin it all?

euu make me hate guys so much

make me so evil toward guys

make me so uncertain of does other guys realli love me

and

will they did de same way as euu

abandon me

haha

but i realli could not treat a guy well le

now i been de one who mak guys sad

tat not i wan

is just i cannot control

i tend to not trust him when he onli did a small mistake

i feel i am so bad towards him

btw hope euu

treat yr current gf well

she is a nice gal

dun leave her cos of any gal

wad sadness can mak me do?

whenever i am sad

i will do something i dislike

and will nv do when i am calm

the thing is ask guy out

onli when i am sad

i hab de courage 2 ask ppl out

but when i am not

i will not

cos i am realli scared of meetin guys

may be is one of de probia euu bring

euu r de 1st guy i meet outside

and hurt me so much

haha

wth

why i hab such a habit when i am sad?

sometimes i realli feel so shameless when i cool down

may be other gals will feel tat it is just a normal thing

but to me

is a big issues

in mui dictionary,askin ppl out means i bu yao lian

but ytd i dun realli regret

cos i got to noe a new friend,turtle

he so nice man

haha,lucky gt his accompany

or else i sure cry somewhere de

plus he is not around so cannot find him

and i will being left alone le

so lucky gt turtle

we played arcade ^^

although was quite angry

i am so sad

he still win me in car racin

nv let me win,arghh

but haha

he dunno i am sad ma

while playin, he called me

words he spoke hurts me a lot

but nvm

i will choose to do him de favour

go against mui rights

just to hope mui doings

will help him and his gf

and i won contact him anymore

cos is enough

stop makin me as a spare tyre

i dun wan

i am also not willin 2 become one

anyway after de acc of turtle

went to find xiao di di

he gif me a feelin of real kor kor

can felt tat kor kor <3>

but tupi him la

dun wan let me drink

so angry --

but anyway i noe his standard reply

tis small stuff onli

why care so much?

haha

everythin 2 him is a small stuff la

but

wad he said is right

is

may be to moi is a small issue

but to euu should be a serious issue ba

haha

anyway thanks fer turtle's acc and xiao didi's acc

so happi to hab u 2 there fer me

but somehow feel bad

feel tat i am a nusiance to them

hope when they hab their problem

will come and find me

or i veri guilty wor

oh ya, at night

i chat wit his gf

she was indeed a veri nice gal^^

we r both libra

hehe

i will promise her

i will nv contact him de

so hope euu won break wit him

pls

although i admit i hate him

but i dun wan see a gal like euu to get hurt

as i noe euu love him deeply

i also hope tat tis kind of issue won't happen le

so here,i gif eu bless wit him

hope guys can stop hurtin gals ma

guys r such a bastard

haha

btw, i nv go sch 2day

kenna tired xia

may be think too much so cannot slp

opps i still hab not eat mui lunch and dinner

now stomach is grumbling --

ka0ri(argh)

Saturday, August 4, 2007
9:18 PM

Is PICTURE TIME

HeHe, it is mui favourite drink ^^

I am as sad and lonely as it T_T

Hai ya, 2day stay at home the whole day

haha, tis mornin wake up den saw mui UT get another C again

sad sad T_T

hai yo yo, nowaday seems like everythin not doin gd

friendship problem!!!

UT problem!!!

in sch, also nv improve much!!!

was realli afraid of changin classwhen thought of that

there will be butterfiles in mui stomach

hai...wad i do at home ne?

haha, was keep downloadin songs

opps, is illigel, but who cares laget caught den get caught lo

nowaday realli feel no life livin lor

so much trouble, plus not realli happi

although i keep laughin and smilin

but tad just wad i trained

i can't feel wad is the real laughter and fake again

i also not knowin wad goin on wit moi

may be last time too happy le

therefore ask for more

my mood also can swings veri fast

all these happens after i left mui secondary sch

think i still not realli like mui poly ba

hai, feel tat studyin in tis sch, make mui life habin no goals,no life,no laughter

ytd quarrelin wit one of mui bestie

hai, is just a small matter, but dunno why we will quarrel till like dat

i noe tat she is stressin and her moods also not gd after enterin her new sch

y can't i just gif in to her ne?

i felt tat i can't be as last time, show patience to ppl le

y?y?y?realli would like to find de problems in me

hai, but i still not realli like ppl to use vulgar

it can ruin mui moods

may be dat mui character ba

still cannot live in a world of vulgar

i also find myself damn useless lai should be beri angry cos of the quarrel

but not knowin why de tears keep wantin to drop from mui eyes

hai, now, i could not even differentiate whether i am angry or sad xia

horrible, rite?

can hab 2 emotions at de same time

hai, wadever

but felt tat it is difficult fer us to befriend again ba

cos of both our stubborn character

opps, someone found out i backlisted him le

haha, and he said i owe him sandwich

but now in return, he owe me

lalala

he is gettin mad nowadays ba

lalala

chat wit mingyu 2day, he is out 2day and tml gonna check in again

and next week goin de wad island le

hope he will be ping an ^^2day

also chat wit mui long no contact friend, liang wei

he was sent to de hostel

lol, he can't remember who am i

haha, said am i de tall tall one and wear spect de

haha, of cos i am tall man but when did i wear spect

haha, nvm, will forgif him

as it been so long

wow, recently, ppl tat i nb see long time

said i change a lot, gt meh?

but anyway i love singin

sing sing sing

sing all de way
<3>

realli hope i can get rid of tat "habit" of mine

den i can sing wit ease

realli love singin so much

wanna noe wad i wana be when grow up ma?

haha, wad i love is wad i wanna be

so shy to say out man,haha, cos tat job realli requires so much critiera =d

HEHE, i wanna be air stewardess too

hehe....so envy those air stewardesswill i get mui chance ne???

haha, but i confirm won't be a bus driver de

so si ying, i will nb agree wit tat

haha, cos of tat incident

it makes me hate BUS so much xia

i am wonderin tooy there are so much misfortunate and funny stuffs happens to moi lei

hai hai hai

ka0ri^^ (troubled)

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Friday, August 3, 2007
6:32 PM

wad happened 2day ne?
some ma lu "thingy" happens to me again
first, when i was presentin,i keep on unable to pronounce the word"isomerism"
argh, den 4 of mui slides has tis idiot word
and everytime when i tryin to pronounce tis word
friend will help me pronounce
is so ma lu lo
so i keep laughin, may be tis is de way to prevent myself from feelin ma lu
but thanks fer the friends who helps me speak tis word ^^
next will be de RJ
haha, was kiasu to finish it
so tak de qns from the daily grade column
and done it b4 the 6th Ps ended
but after i finished, friends around me den realised tis is the last week qns
WTH, i argh in mui heart
haha,cos last wk nb come ma den dunno
but i had already submit it once the faci open the RJ
haha, den other classmates complaint tat it is de last wk qns
den wanna faci to change but faci realised tat there is already some1 submitted her RJ
and unfortunately i am the one =X
den ppl keep askin who is de one who uploaded
haha,they was wonderin how can i write so fast,izzit write a few words onli?
BUT IS NO LOR, i write a long list of words
but den the faci should noe tat i am not listenin in class ba
and i can see him smilin away
dunno for wad lo, arghh
it teaches me not to be so kaisu le
haha, but i am not,okie? just wanna finish mui stuff quickly so able to go out
and dun need rush home cos of the tupi RJ =D
yeah yeah, now i am free
finish every stuffs, may be tml goinn zhenghua tat
i will try not to mak chingz disappointed de,hehe

Time fer mui sharin of moments in sch 2day
2day ne? arghh
same as everyday
bullied by de same grp of guys in mui class
they are in de "blacklists of mine" ^^
ghim hong(who keeps copy mui voice but 2day quite nice wor,he helps me tak mui ahfuhan^^)
shui min(keep beatin me and mak me feel irritated)
Freddy(alwaez shot me de la, ask him where is de ghost den he said all de craps)
Godfrey(alwaez said tis person act cute, tat person act cute,haha, he look like a monkey 2day)

....

tat all for 2day
but not forgettin de ppl tat i can bully
Yida(haha, ti ko.....)


May me be happy alwaze^^


ka0ri^^ (happi gal)

SAD SAD

Thursday, August 2, 2007
8:42 PM

Today noe mui cog de grade o, gosh, get a C

sad sad sad

hmmm, 2day change grp o...de new grp was quite okie

but i prefer de last grp =X

gosh.. 2day i jumped wit FEAR

cos we was watchin the ARANG(a horror movie)

ARGHH, i dun dare to watch de lor

but is forced mui classmates

haha, while i am about to run away

freddy was behind me and he gif me a fright

i thought he is tat "thingy" xia

den i shouted and jumped wit fear

realli gif me a fear lo

den ppl was wondering wth am i screamin fer!!!

oooo..i am still de timid moi

i just dun dare to watch horror movie xia

i think i nv watch a horror movie b4 without covering mui eyes

haha, whenever i am afraid,i went to mui mama de room to slp

argh, alwaez kanna chase out by them de

but no choice, who ask them to born a timid gal like moi...hehe

ytd slp at mama's room, so damn comfortable, no fear at all ^^

2day, i buy 2 puddings home wor, nice nice ^^

hehe,daddy 2day also win $30 in TOTO

plus i finally get mui pay, budden is a cheque so need to put in bank

and i return mui debt to mummy ^^

gonna save lots lots of money den spent it all at one GO, sure veri shiok de =D

finished RJ le, yeah yeah

gonna slp early 2day, must put on the moisture cream i bought ytd ^^ (reminder)

next time i will show u guys de moisture cream i bought,hehe

but i wan tat hydratin cream but cost $59.90 at SaSa,made in korean xia..woo

ka0ri^^

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