Monday, August 6, 2007
10:23 AM
Take mui sadness away
Opps, ytd internet gt problem so nv blog
hmmm...would like to comment on mui tagbox
was realli touched to see mui dearest 2 friends
concernin fer me
thanks veri much
wad happened ytd?
it is a day of mixture of feelings
disappointed?
sad?
happy?(unlikely)
touched?
angry?
haha, i dunno hw to describe anymore
i just realli feel very regretted
regretted of meetin euu
mui 1st time bein left alone at orchard
i am so sorri tat i caused wad happen to euu
but do euu thought of mui feelin
i felt so silly
i should carry on wit mui hatred towards eu
why can't i?
i admit u r de 1 i <3>
de 1 who makes me sad de longest
hurts me de most
make me do things tad i will nv do on others
the one who keep allowin me 2 hab unexpected happenin
can euu stop hurtin me?
just carry on wit yr life
why bother to come and find me?
i am happy without euu
why come back and ruin mui life?
euu hab already abandoned me for 1 yr plus
cos of the presence of another gal
and wad hab euu done to me?
euu brought nth
but onli sadness to mui life
do euu ever being scolded b4?
cos of euu, i was scolded by yr gf's godsis
BITCH!!
a word i nv thought of ppl will use on me
and wad can i do?
i noe nth, euu does not tell me yr gf is unhappy
if i noe tat, i will leave euu
not even wantin 2 be yr god sis
even i get scoldin
do euu noe tat?
even i cried,euu noe?
nobody noe...
i felt tat i am so ...
cried under de rain
haha...
de years of sadness come from euu
lettin me habin probia in relationship
now even worse
ppl who noe me well
should noe tat i am someone who don't like 2 tak initative
love mui face so much
and realli care abt hw ppl look on me
and now i hab 2 tell someone
i am de one who re contact him de
de one who ask him out
and
promise nv contact him again
hahaha
so wierd xia
mak me feel even more a BITCH
a bitch tat keep stealin ppl's bf
which i hab no intention
as i noe de feelin of bf bein tak away by other gal
how will i do de same thing?
come on
dun mak me sad anymore
stop mui probia
euu should noe last time
i should be a gal who trust in relationship
a gal who wan an endin like tong hua gu shi
why ruin it all?
euu make me hate guys so much
make me so evil toward guys
make me so uncertain of does other guys realli love me
and
will they did de same way as euu
abandon me
haha
but i realli could not treat a guy well le
now i been de one who mak guys sad
tat not i wan
is just i cannot control
i tend to not trust him when he onli did a small mistake
i feel i am so bad towards him
btw hope euu
treat yr current gf well
she is a nice gal
dun leave her cos of any gal
wad sadness can mak me do?
whenever i am sad
i will do something i dislike
and will nv do when i am calm
the thing is ask guy out
onli when i am sad
i hab de courage 2 ask ppl out
but when i am not
i will not
cos i am realli scared of meetin guys
may be is one of de probia euu bring
euu r de 1st guy i meet outside
and hurt me so much
haha
wth
why i hab such a habit when i am sad?
sometimes i realli feel so shameless when i cool down
may be other gals will feel tat it is just a normal thing
but to me
is a big issues
in mui dictionary,askin ppl out means i bu yao lian
but ytd i dun realli regret
cos i got to noe a new friend,turtle
he so nice man
haha,lucky gt his accompany
or else i sure cry somewhere de
plus he is not around so cannot find him
and i will being left alone le
so lucky gt turtle
we played arcade ^^
although was quite angry
i am so sad
he still win me in car racin
nv let me win,arghh
but haha
he dunno i am sad ma
while playin, he called me
words he spoke hurts me a lot
but nvm
i will choose to do him de favour
go against mui rights
just to hope mui doings
will help him and his gf
and i won contact him anymore
cos is enough
stop makin me as a spare tyre
i dun wan
i am also not willin 2 become one
anyway after de acc of turtle
went to find xiao di di
he gif me a feelin of real kor kor
can felt tat kor kor <3>
but tupi him la
dun wan let me drink
so angry --
but anyway i noe his standard reply
tis small stuff onli
why care so much?
haha
everythin 2 him is a small stuff la
but
wad he said is right
is
may be to moi is a small issue
but to euu should be a serious issue ba
haha
anyway thanks fer turtle's acc and xiao didi's acc
so happi to hab u 2 there fer me
but somehow feel bad
feel tat i am a nusiance to them
hope when they hab their problem
will come and find me
or i veri guilty wor
oh ya, at night
i chat wit his gf
she was indeed a veri nice gal^^
we r both libra
hehe
i will promise her
i will nv contact him de
so hope euu won break wit him
pls
although i admit i hate him
but i dun wan see a gal like euu to get hurt
as i noe euu love him deeply
i also hope tat tis kind of issue won't happen le
so here,i gif eu bless wit him
hope guys can stop hurtin gals ma
guys r such a bastard
haha
btw, i nv go sch 2day
kenna tired xia
may be think too much so cannot slp
opps i still hab not eat mui lunch and dinner
now stomach is grumbling --
ka0ri(argh)
Take mui sadness away