Friday, October 5, 2007
2:36 PM
"Sad and disappointing" mean thousands of words
I could said that this coming birthday is total nothing
sat and sun nth to do
No celebration...
May be staying alone at home celebrating ba
Everything is not confirmed yet
This yr is also de onli yr that i received the fewest presents
Everything does not go mui way
When some1 is feelin low
LadyLuck also left
I hab been awaiting for this birthday
Lookin forward for it to come for so long
But end up everything spoil b4 it ever reached me
May be at 1st, i should not put so high hope
And in the end, fall from the sky
In this case, i rather dun hab birthday
As it does not make any different with normal day
Any special? NOPE
Mui onli birthday wish is hope tat de old him is back
The first impression does not disappeared
Or may be let me lost all mui memories
May be i can live happier?
ka0ri ( sad and disappointing )
Monday, October 1, 2007
4:11 PM
Later i will be meetin mui cousin
Feelin still sucks as usual
It allows me to realise tat even u keep de secrets close to yr heart
but it still cannot decieve others
Facial expression can tell
I learn to forgoes
Learn to hold mui temper
Not to be so da xiao jie like in de past
To forgoes, to forget is realli hard
I wish tat i can control muiself
switching sad to happy asap
and control de feelin i hab
even when i am sad
others won noe
in tis way
friends around me won be worried abt me
Worried tat i kept everything to muiself
and not share
i noe i am not lonely when u all are around
i am realli glad tat u all care so much abt me
make me realise tat i am not nobody
i am someone euu all care
me too
i dun wan to be always sad
i am afraid to be always sad and make euu all sick and tired of console me
i felt tat i am so weak
everything onli noe hw 2 cry
cannot let go de meh
so weak
hate being weak
y others hab not encountered wit so much problems as euu
is just hw u face it
take it easy man
ka0ri ` i am lost in the jungle `
a tree make me fall
~ defeated ~
Colour changes
Character changes
Black to white changes
Changes to a life of colourful
It take lots of efforts for the change
But now a little Hurt can change Everything
From the Rainbow to the black and white
May u change it back again?
Bu nen shou de mi mi
A Secret was known after going 6 months
Y dun euu let me know earlier
may be it won hurt me tat much?
Tat a big secret that mak me so shocked
Now i hab no heart to look forward to mui birthday
In dilemma is wad am i now
should i continue or not?
How much euu wan to hurt me?
I hab changed so much
May be as wad other said ba
is mui retribution for hurtin others
now is mui turn to get hurt
But i believe nth is more hurt than wad yr loved ones can bring to euu
I realli dunno wad should i do now...
is more hard to decide than last time
euu hurt me so much
and now should i go against mui principle to carry on
why let me noe the truth when i felt so fortunate
Fortunate to hab gd friends around me, Love, Work, Study
But now i felt that i fall from the heaven to the hell
all gone ~
Ka0ri ( Hurted )
