Friday, November 23, 2007
11:24 AM
Ytd went out wit Loves
We went to JE
At first
We intend to watch movie
Budden changed our minds
Den we went IMM
Went to a restaurant to eat
A funny thing happen here
The restaurant could not use nets to pay de bills
And we got no enough money
Therefore we mak our way down to tak money to pay
So ma lu xia
Bad thing also does happen
Seriously
I hate the "place of agrument"
Which causes mui character
Onli de strongest can survive
I hate the mouth of people
They often gt something to say
And they are not people tat i know in past
Think b4 they said anythin
Their words does hurt people
And i just dun understand tat
Y they like to "bully" people so much
Realli sux lah
Like wad Mr Koh said b4
The weakness see in the someone outlook
Thought to be the weakest
Keen to be the strongest
Who always wan to be the lead
Which they dun suit
Bullies r ppl who tends to get bully b4
So now they wan to prove themselves
Strong or not is not u can decide for one
She or he can be strong in a certain way
Every ppl has their weakness
You think tat u r strong
But some ppl might think u r just weak
Tat wad dpdp can explain de term
Being bullied can be advantageous
Cos everybody will been through it
Those ppl who like to bully ppl
Will hab their retribution
As i believe in tis world
Tat hw u treat others is hw ppl treat eu
So think b4 u do any bad thing
Do eu wan ppl to treat u de same?
As wad u treat ppl
Tat also goes for relationship
If u r a person who keep dumping ppl
Cheat ppl's feelin
One day u will get punished too
Just like me
I noe i hurt someone deeply b4
Therefore in turn
There is someone treatin me de same
A success scenario i hab
Which is days wit Loves
We both treasure each other
Nv disadvantage each others
Care fer each other
Does not bully each other
Use sarcism
Therefore we r as gd as b4
Or i can said
Our relationship become better
Seriously speakin
I realli treasure euu
I dun wish to lose euu through any agruments
I am afraid tat when we gt better
We will hab more agruments
Although i always seem tough on euu
Whenever the times wit euu
And seldom let euu see mui weakness side
Cos i noe u truly care fer mi
So i dun wan euu to worry for mi
Even i noe tat u will be there for me
Try to go to where i am
But i dun wan let euu see me cryin
So everytime
I went to the place of mi and him
Which is de place
I place my sorrow and tears
The darkness of the place can hide mui sadness
I hate 2 tell euu hw long i cry
Hw bad i treat myself
I noe ya will be hurt too
I am sorry for always doin something for euu to worry for me
And also make u tears
If there is no euu around
I realli dunno hw to survive again
Thanks fer everything eu do
As fer wad happens 2day
Weakness not to be seen
I nv go sch 2day
Drunk ytd yesterday
Drunk keep problems away
Gif eu de dizzness
And de pain too
I noe my gastric condition is bad enough
But i still drink
Cos there is nth to cure de pain i hab
Pain vs Pain
I could not sleep for the whole night
I might be cruel as some ppl think
Can easily reject ppl without thinkin
Budden once i put my heart and soul inside
It will be hard fer me to let go
So i dun wan to befriend wit u all at all
I scare the more memories u all bring
It will stop me for movin on
And stop wit eu
Love is a unstoppable train
I can choose to enter it or not
Knowing someone is also a unstoppable train
Cos once i start knowin eu
Puttin my sincere and concern
Is hard to get out again
Life is like Drama
I fail to play my part now
To be a successful actress
Defend yr weakness
And be strong
Whenever u meet wit any obstacles
Ka0ri
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
9:27 PM
Life is like a rollercoaster
I am facing my downs now
Everything just goes bad for mi
As i thought when u msg me ytd
I thought we could not better
And u could understand me again
Budden today yr action mak me totally disappointed
U always help me to mak decision
Yr decision is not what i thought
Everything also i thought
But is just nv come true
YA
May i should just be firm enough
Same as monday, not replyin at all
Forever dun reply yr msg
So i can forget u faster
Yr comeback mak me sad again
I hab done my best
For u, i quarrel wit mui family
As they dun wan me to be wit u
Learn wat i can do to accommodate wit u
Spent all my time remainin with u without any rest
And accept the truth tat u told me
Which is somehw against mui principle towards my bf
U hab broke everythin i wan as for a bf
I realli dunno wad could not be harsh enough
Hai
ka0ri
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
5:49 PM
Today hab great fun at causeway point
Making skit fer our enterprise presentation
And we went to play arcade
Woo
But somehw some unpleasant thing happens too
My memory card was spoiled
Somehw quite sad
I realli dunno why
Tat everything i start to earn some money
There will be something spoiled
And the money i earned goes to waste
Another sad thing is that some important pic is missing
I dun blame anybody for it
May be the god
wanna me to forget the person i love de most
And the other person who mak me struggling to forget him
And mak a right decision
So it makes me lost all the pic i hab
And all the pictures i took for memories
And wanna me to start anew
I know u r feeling guilty or bad
but pls dun feel tis way can?
Cos is not yr fault
everyone will mak mistakes
if i am u, i will feel equally bad too
Budden i will also feel bad when i saw someone is unhappi
This is de 1st time i saw u cry
And gotten shocked by eu
Cos u look so strong budden u still will cry
Cheers,okie?
And let forget abt the unhappi thing
Thursday, November 15, 2007
9:00 PM
O
Today go out with LOVES o
So happi
Everytime go out wit LOVES
Make me lookin forward
<3>
Wad we do today ne?
Again we buy a lot of food and eat together
And watch titanic at LOVES de hse
haha
cannot finish our food xia
o
He goin back today le
Dunno wad will be reaction when he come back
I somehw misses the day i hab wit him
Hai
Dun say abt it le
Past is past le
O ya
Gonna a B for my science UT
Honestly speakin, i realli nv study hard for it
But is all luck
I seldom get a B for my UT de
Also dunno hw i do it
Budden today de science sure die de
Even luck also cannot help it
As last time still gt copy from 6p
Now ne, not enough hab time to finish man
Scoring a B affect my moods for doing the UT
Mak me not motivated and not concentrated
Somehw feel quite sad
when ppl said tat cannot judge ppl by de look
I noe i am not gd in presentin or i am not performin well
But it does not mean my UT will be as bad
And somehw i offer to help
Budden " seem like not convincing in me
I realli dislike ppl not to trust me
And ask others for help
When i understand everything
Is like so ... la
A person who does not do well
does not mean tat she is poor in everything ma
Do gif her a chance to perform too
Dun always think highly of euu
Just 2 let u tat no one is perfect
So do euu
There will be someone better den eu
Lookin down on eu too
Will u like de feeling?
Hai
Realli feel like puttin such a comments in mui blog
But blog is where i put out my anger
Not settin tis blog to act nice and let ppl see
Ka0ri
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
11:51 AM
I wan to be happy everyday
Let mui happiness hide the scars of being hurt deep in my heart
I wan to forget everything
Forget everything to start a new life
I will stay away from euu
Thus we r not meant to be
I wan to keep myself busy everyday
To keep mui mind of euu
Yi Ge Ren
Monday, November 12, 2007
3:57 PM
从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨
晴天阴天今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门没差别
一个人到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人我重新适应一切不方便
两个人不一定就成全一个世界
一个人关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线过去那些情节更明显...
更明显...
Our tong hua gu shi ended
忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错什么你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了我愿变成童话里我要变成童话里我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局一起写我们的结局
The song we hab
I could not fall asleep
No matter hw much i struggle
Feel the hotness on mui forehead
Think i am feelin sick right now
With swollen eyes
In dilemma
Wad should i do?
Both of us are not able to let go
But then if we carry on
Both of us will suffer more
Hurt more
Stand up tall?
Strive on?
Hard to do now
I am still as weak as de past
Could not mak mui mind
Even mak up mui mind to break
But den yr words soften mui heart
Wad can i do?
Making a decision
Is just like
seeing two pairs of nice shoes
Not knowin which one suit me better
And which one should i get
And when u mak de decision
Paid the money
You could not regret
For shoes, we can dun choose any of them
But then for our relationship
We must choose one
And move on
A sudden
i felt tat world is so cruel
Happy times hab their limit
When it gone
It won't come back again
So treasure wadever u hab
I wanna to stay de same forever
Dun wan anyone to leave me
But it is impossible
Every of our friends and him are just passerbys
Who come and leave
U hab no rights to make decision
Onli Fate can help eu make a decision
Yr biggest component is yrself
U gt to defeat yrself
B4 u can defeat others
Which is de biggest thing to explore in de world?
Do u know de ans for it?
The ans is human's heart
It really hard to understand what someone is thinking
Even myself
i dunno wad i am thinkin?
And wad is LOVE abt?
I onli noe tat Love brings me hurt
ka0ri
Everything is 0ver
Is hurt definitely
We hab been through so long 2gether
My longest one
Again as last time
Cried at our place for 2 hours
Thinkin back a lot of memories
Tears filled mui eyes
Hai, may be tis endin will be gd fer us ba
As even we continue on
We won't hab any gd ending
Will onli hurt more eventually
I dunno whether can i stand up again
Be strong again?
I hab been rely on u fer tis past 6 plus months
Now i am alone again
Is like de plato cave
When stayin in the cave for long
Out of sudden i gonna see de sunshine again
I won't be used to it
Hai
Be strong
Friday, November 9, 2007
12:13 AM
Today saw someone's blog
Veri disappointin xia
Hai, dun wan said it le
Already said wad i wan to say
If she realli treat me as her friend
She will come back and find me
If not, tis 4 yrs of friendship is fake
She does not care abt me
Wen she gt her new sch and new classmates
I am glad at least i hab mui sisters wit me
O ya
Today went to celebrate mui cousin de birthday
She was shocked by me
Cos i suddenly break down and cry
I am so sorry man
I could not help myself
I am confused of wad should i do
I dun feel like sayin wad happen
Cos i dunno hw 2 said it
Hai, may be tat the end of us ba
Cousin, cousin
I am so lucky to hab euu
If he can be so caring as euu
Tat would be enough
It does not mean tat he r not caring enough
Budden hard to say de la
I love mui cousin so much, so much to say
Hope my cousin will enjoy today and love her gift
I enjoyed muiself too ^^
Woo.. 2day hab mui champagne and red wine
haha, i like drunk like tat lo
No choice
Who ask me to lose
So gonna drink
I think i frighten mui colleague xia
Wow
mui colleague named shawn is damn nice lo
Although sometimes he is quite fierce towards me
Budden he is realli nice de
Wahaha
Pls dun beat me anymore la
Now i like mui workin place more and more ^^
O ya
I took mui initative to talk 2 someone tat i mak him angry
Haha
May be for a friendship
We should tak initative to save it from ending
Hehe
ka0ri^^
Sunday, November 4, 2007
4:26 PM
Just Now
When i am on mui way to hab mui injection
I saw a crashed bird along the road
So heartpain xia
So ke lian
Can even see the blood comin out of it
I could not imagine tat even it is dead
It still hab to suffer from being crashed and crashed again
Wa...
Feel so useless
Tat i could not do anything to help it
I onli can wish tat there is no more vehicle crashin on it again
May god bless u
Rest in peace
OOO...
I finally hab mui injection
Now i am feelin dizzy
And mui hand is numb
Spoil mui plan to go out wit mui cousin
Arghh..
And for me and him
There onli 50% 50% less
I also dunno wad happens
Wadever he do
Mak me angry
I also dunno wad happen to me
I onli know tat i am very stress
Hai
Shall continue....
Ka0ri
Thursday, November 1, 2007
7:19 AM
F... de
Everything just dun go on my way
i have changed le la
changed to not finding people and play wit them
in order to prevent trouble
but wtf
people come and find me trouble
u dun say me
i also won't push yr face away
ex me la
gif me some space when you are speakin,can?
dun make me threatened
people won't think what they are doing
when they are being threatened
they only do things to protect themselves
i know i have wrong
i also dun wan things to end up like tat
You dun wan ppl to touch yr face
doesn't mean tat people like being said by u,rite?
The word "promoter" realli cause my anger
so wad if i cannot pronounce well
u dun need to REPEAT so mani times, rite?
i noe my english was lousy
but u dun need to insult me de ma
i also dun wan to be like tat too
i will feel hurted too
my english is mui weakness
and offensive topic
and can't u think abt other feelin
b4 speaking yr thoughts
WTF
i dun wan to be a troublemaker
and i am not to
hope tat u dun come and find trouble wit me
i hab no such energy to make trouble
i rather put my energy in my work
ka0ri
