~SHIRLEY~

Tuesday, January 8, 2008
5:18 AM

A day without gd nite msg
It means something is wrong
Ytd is the first day of sch
Went to sch
I was so damn tired
Den after tat went to work
Happy to noe vincent is not around
Onli me and Gary
At abt 8 plus
Went to buy some foods for myself and Gary
And come back use my laptop
He is gd to allow me to use my laptop there
While eatin and using my laptop
He called
I was quite happy to see him calling
But to my surprise
He said he gt bad news for me
Ask me not to be sad
Which is He get into trouble again
And need to go back
And need to go back
Means i goin to lose him
No gd nite msg every nite le
No one there carin fer me le
Is been hard to clear our misunderstandin
And get back to our usual self
But now i can't believe he will be gone again
I was talkin to him on the phone
Den Gary called me to come back
Said he need to go and tak stocks from Far East
At first is he asked me to go de
Think he noe i am feelin sad
So he off he went

By the time i called back
He ran out le
I told him not to do tat
But he nv listen
Hai
He won listen to me de
I realli could not tak control myself
And burst out into tears through the phone
And maybe it is the 1st time i cried in front of ppl
I usualli can hold it back
Or run to the toilet and cried
Den come back de
But now i could not stop it
I just keep on crying
So Gary asked me to go home
And ask me to advice him to go home
So i quickly rushed home
Prepared myself and tak cab down to his didi's hse
I dunno why when i get to see him
I dare not say anythin
And dun dare to show him the powerpoint i did
hai
Is also disappointin
Maybe i should not come
Feel some sort of extra
There is nth to talk abt
And he like does not realli care abt my exist?
Or he being shy again?
To me
I will nv accept ppl being shy
I onli noe if tat someone is important to eu
Eu should treat her differently from others
I hate ppl to say sorry to me
Cos i dun like to see the mistakes ppl done
I asked for perfect
Not mistakes

At abt 1 plus
He and his friend is goin to meet wad big person la
So we went off 2gether
I was the 1st to walk out
Without sayin gdbye
Cos anger and disappointment is there
I was havin fever and my head is giddy
But all i think is tryin my best to ask eu to go back home
But the moment i step into yr didi's hse
I noe it is impossible
I can heard him shoutin many times
" Gal Gal "
But i don't want to care abt him
But heart still soften
So turn back
And he said gdbye to me
In my life
I nv been neglected by guys
Ytd somehw i feel neglected
And somehw feel why should i get myself into tis shoes
Offered to be neglected?

I have been having shi mian for quite a long time
And again
Ytd i could not get to slp
Hai
Head is realli pain
Think i goin to break down soon ba

I nv expect it comes so fast
The reason u just told me
Realli happen now
U said u dun wan fall for me
Cos u r afraid tat u need to go back again
And dun wan mak me hurt
Wan me to be happy every single day
And now in just a day
It happened !~
Can u tell me wad should i do?
Even though both of us clearly noe tat we won be 2gether
Cos i dun wanna get into relationship again
But u still left a important place in my heart
U r the one who accompany me through the rainy days
And u said u will be there for me
In 8 months times
We goin for night cyclin
Onli u and me
But now, how?
U run away !~
Dun wanna see u goes back again
REALLI DUN WAN
Can?
I said le
I hate being let go
I dun wan ppl to be passerby of my life
U said u will come back and find me when u r out
No way
I wan yr acc now
Dun wan u to go in
I noe u r stress and sad
It has been two yrs
Nv celebrate chinese new yr wit yr family
Now u need to go back again
I said i can feel my 2008
Is a bad yr for me
And is really true
Jan 6 and 7
I cried
When will i cry again ne?
Jan 7
7 7 7
My favourite day and number
Is a tough day
A beri tough day
I hate to see ppl leavin me one by one
Especially eu
We still hab to compete
Who will fall in love 1st de ba
U said is a promise u mak to yrself
Tat u want to mak me happy everyday
YES
U DID IT
With u around
I no longer think abt the sad things
Tat me and him break off le
And i indeed smile everyday
Especially when u msg me
Concern abt me
Chat wit me on phone even though u r damn tired
BUT NOW
If u r gone
I will just return back to my usual self
Sad everyday
Cos of u and him
Ai hai tao tao
Why i always had tis kind of fate
Important ppl r always taken away from me
I dun wan u to go back again
Realli dun wan
U said u will try not to fight again de
Try not to smoke
But den
B4 u ever try
It happened le
Can't god gif him a chance to try?
He nv even beat ppl
But why so suan need to go in?
Heart is havin conflicts
Realli afraid i recieve a call again
Tat he was caught
Pls dun
I dun wan to listen to tat call
I am so afraid
I noe he will get caught tis few days
Soon and later
How?how?how?
I wan the gd nite msg from euu euu euu
U still hab not finish sendin me
There is at least 26 more to go
Mean at least 26 days to go
U said u wan to mak me happy everyday de
Dun break yr promise,can?
I realli hope u r safe and sound
Again i am truly hurt
I need eu
I realli do ~
Maybe in both our heart
We have already fall in love le
But just controllin
U said b4
U like me a bit le
So now u need to control
So dun wan send me msg concernin me
But now we r past to our usual self
U start to send msg to me
Askin where is gal gal ne?
Boiboi
I realli dun wan to lose u
I remember i send u de song
WHERE R U...
Both our friendster put the same song
Cos is our song,rite?
I still remember the christmas eve and new year eve
U and my love is the 1st person i get to see in my 1st day of 2008
The shyness u show out
Hidin inside the room
Enjoyin air con
Show me and m love the magic show yr friend did
Is so funny
And u disturb me back when i was playin CS
Moreover me and my love is sittin on the lorry
And u r upstairs
Xian hai us to talk
And disturb ppl
And when we meet wit danger
U r there to help us
Tellin me u r realli angry to see me givin de money
And u nearly could not control yrself
Forgt abt the taggin
Wanna to run out of the hse
But why?
U r the one i saw in my 1st day of 2008
Mean u should be the one acc me throughout 2008 de
The start of the yr of me and u
Can i reverse back the time?
U told me u beri sad when u heard galgal cryin
I noe u also dun wan leave us de
But why?
Is not our choice to decide...
Realli miss those days we hab
Typin our msg in the PM
The msg we send 2 each other
AND MORE MORE MORE
Without u, i am just nothin
I hab nv been so happy b4 after leavin my joy of place, my sec sch
U r the one who bring laughter to me
Keep it goin,pls
I am gettin to hate police more and more
Dun tak boiboi away from me
It will hurt everyone
Boiboi galgal must msg each other everyday de
I wanna celebrate yr birthday wit u
U said u nv celebrate b4 de
Why things change so fast de....
Where r u now?
Even ytd i am disappointed and angry
And keep thinkin tat i dun wan care abt u anymore
But i just cannot do it
I seldom msg guy de
U r my seldom
U mak me change to someone i dunno
Nv think i can do so much
Even more den my exs
Even though u does not meet my criteria to be my bf
Yr height yr size and ...
But yr being mak me dun mind all these
Boiboi
U gt to be strong
If u realli go in again
Let get contact wen u r out
Realli hope u can come out fast
Can u manage to celebrate the next christmas and new yr eve wit me?
I somehw miss u now ~

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