
~SHIRLEY~

Monday, February 18, 2008
10:53 PM
Is been a while since i last blog le
currently de me is workin for kenzo
A job dat is so so sian de
Hai
As for today
I am fallin sick
And also sad and disappointed
The reason of why i dun wan to get into relationship
Cos i am not ready to commit my time to my partner
Like whenever i am free
I gt to meet Him
If like dat
I cannot even breathe man
I am afraid of tat le
And now even we r not bf and gf
I could not hab a peaceful day at home
yr mum called to ask me go yr hse
No matter hw i reject
She keep on askin
I feel so helpless xia
I am realli sick
But ya mum said i lie
Yea
I am forgetful dat i did ask u told ya mum i am not sick
Is so sad when i heard wad ya mum said
I am actualli cryin over de phone
But still act tough in front of euu
Even afternoon i also cried
Cos i am stress dat should i go yr hse or not
Cos i am realli tired and not feelin well
But afraid ya mum unhappy
Is been tough to pluck up my courage to tell euu
I not Goin
and u said huh...
Thought u would rather ask me stay at home and rest den go yr hse
U huh cos u could not get to see me
U mak me feel dat u dun reali care abt me
My health is not dat important den u could not see me
I am wonderin y am i de one who go and find euu
Thought there is always in and out
hai
I can see yr efforts become lessen and lessen
All i can said is
I am gettin more and more hurt and disappointment
And i am wonderin am i dat important 2 euu?