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~SHIRLEY~
Friday, October 17, 2008
9:50 AM
Hais ~
Another sad day for me
I hope i can strive
Strive not to let my classmates noe i am feelin sad now
Avoid thinkin wad has happened
When can i be a sunflower ne?
Noe is kenna funny to link myself to the sunflower
Hais
We quarrel ytd
Quite a serious one
All cos of "TRUST" tis word
I am sry tat i could not trust ya as in the past
I wan to trust ya too de
But ya the 2nd guy who lie to me le
My ex lie to me
And it cause a great impact to me
Which i told myself
Stop gettin into relationship to prevent i trust the wrong one again
And get hurt
So tat y i reject u in the past
But accept ya
Cos i feel tat ya r worth me takin another risk to check it up
But nv expect
My total trust on u can become now of half trust
And is hard for me to gain back the trust i hab in u
Even though i can
But do u noe
There is still lots of scars inside my heart
Which is hard to heal?
The hurt ya bring, is a lifetime
Is not i wan to forget
It can be forgotten
I wan to forget too
And restart over again
And do u noe the fear i am in?
Actualli all along i am in fear
Veri veri de scared
Scared i will be like Candy
And ya will be like Zhiyi like dat treat me
Cos u 2 are too alike
Makin more insecure
And i am afraid of anything can happen
Like last time ya nv scold at me b4
Nv so cruel b4
Nv said those hurtful thing to so jia lat to me b4
But yet u did
Like the hurt u said u gonna go and find a gf by tat day
And u realli did
And lying to me u r workin
When u r not
But actualli wit ya friends
Is so disappointin to noe the truth tat u rather be wit yr friend den me
Somehow sometimes i realli envy the couples around me
Their bf are so tender to them
I noe i cannot compare
And it cannot be compare
U hab yr gd points too
U r gd to me too
Think is maybe our thinkings still not tat mature
Therefore we will keep on quarrel ba
I am realli afraid of losing everything again
Tat feeling is scary
I dun wanna repeat the history
Doing those foolish things again
Pls let me hab a way out
I learnt from u and tis relationship
Bf is not everything
Life need friends too
I used to gif up all my friends for u
And wen we break
U noe hw i suffer outside?
Alone?
I used to hab a lot of friends
But cos of tis relationship
My friends become lesser and lesser
Though maybe my friends cannot be compared to the bonds u hab wit yr brothers
But they still my friends
They are the ones who share the sadness wit me
Witout them
Hw can i face all the hurt alone?
When u r sad
U do wan someone to care for u
Rite?
Haiz !~
I dunno wad should i do now?
Realli in confusion
Wad will be the rite way out for us?
Break or not?
Frankly speaking
I am touched by wad u say ytd
Though tears keep rolling down my face
When u r fierce to me
I hate the attitude u used on me
But noeing hw much u did for me
And hw i finally meant to u
I do realli appreciate
Yes ~
We 2 are truly in love
But we keep having problems and problems again
Should we end it?
Stop the pain we 2 been through
Maybe i am selfish ba
I should make the move to break
To prevent u being sad
As ppl always say
When u love someone
U wan him to be happy
So if i let go of him
He can be happier
Why not?
Yes
Cos of u
I get a lot of hurt
Y not get one last hurt to break wit u
And stop the hurt we r suffering?
Gif me some time to think abt it ba
I realli hope there is a solution
And i dun wan boiboi and galgal to become the legend
Or become the past memory
U noe?
